Penny-G

Here's to the Future

2012-01-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

When something begins, you generally have no idea how it’s going to end. The house you’re going to sell becomes your home, the roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the one night stand you were determined to forget becomes the love of your life. - Meredith

so we're standing here at the beginning of the year again, reviewing the past year and anticipating what's ahead of us in the new year. What people usually do is to make a new resolutions for the year and cross check if they've completed any of the resolutions they made last year. I never like making any (last time I did due to peer pressure) because I know as soon as January's over, the resolution will be over too..so why bother cracking my head to think of what to accomplish?

Not setting any resolution for the coming year doesn't mean I don't look up to the year ahead. The past few months of my life was awesome, and awesome it the sense that I feel contented with almost everything that is happening around me. Contented does not mean that I have everything I want, but I'm happy with what I had.

Okay, nothing much to talk about..just like the quote above, you have no idea how your life is going to end, so let it surprise you (good or bad) and live while you are living...

A happy 2012 everyone!

(I know it's very much delayed by now......)

想哭 - 陳奕迅

2011-12-30T12:19:00.002+08:00

想約在一個適合聊天的下午
分開很多年滿以為沒有包袱
我還打算回顧我們為何結束
還想問你是不是一個人住

當你的笑容給我禮貌的招呼
當我想訴說這些年來的感觸
你卻點了滿桌我最愛的食物
介紹我看一本天文學的書

我想哭　不敢哭
難道這種相處
不像我們夢寐以求的幸福
走下去　這一步　是寬容　還是痛苦

我想哭　怎麼哭
完成愛情旅途
談天說地是最理想的出路
談音樂　談時事　不說愛
若無其事　原來是　最狠的報復

當我想坦白我們的樂多於苦
你說水星它沒有衛星　好孤獨
我才明白時間較分手還　殘酷
老朋友了　再沒資格不滿足

The New Life Start Today

2011-12-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

I have officially step into another industry today.

Just like previous, I start from scratch...all over again. well, it's not that bad at all actually, at this point of time where my boss haven recruit enough people to do all the job, I will have a chance to do everything.

First day of work is boring, as usual. Office environment is comfortable, pantry has lotsa chips, ice cream and choc (yay!) and it's free (whee~!!). My boss is a nice man and I am comfortable working with him.

I shall update more when I have more things to do in the future.

Adios~

Btw, Singapore Trip was AWESOME! I shall upload some pictures soon :)

End of Holidays

2011-12-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

I have a new boss! and I'll be going to new office, doing something totally new on 13th December...

I can't describe how thankful I am for getting a job before my Singapore trip..I can now travelling with relieve...I was anxious, panic and helpless before this as I know I will be seriously broke after the trip and with no job coming in, I'll declare bankruptcy in no time.

All I can say is, I'm really looking forward to this new job. I hope it'll be all good :)

Shall update more about the new job soon...

近况

2011-10-27T01:44:00.001+08:00

穷死了

SLOB

2011-10-08T16:29:00.004+08:00

My current job title is a slob.

The excitement of having a holiday only last for two days and boredom sinks in right after two days. Bored to my wits, I just can't find leisure in surfing the internet nor I can sit in front of the tv for hours.

I need to get back to work real soon or I'll be a slob forever.

I just remembered I have to show you the before and after of my work station...

Plans, as I defined

2011-09-25T11:34:00.001+08:00

Plans after I quit my job...

to get enough sleep..
to read..
to cook/bake..
to exercise...
to spend time with my mum..
to have coffee with friends..
to pick up guitar..
to listen to beautiful music..
to engage in charity work..
to write letter to my BFFL..
to learn something new.......
....

My boss(es) is nagging me for not having a plan after resignation...but look, I do have plans..thou I dun think they'll call these a plan..

Everyone has their priority in life. Certainly, work isn't mine...of course everybody have to work because that's how you survive...I am saying survive because if you're working like a dog and no time for anything else other than work is not living at all.....at least to me.

My mission for the year or years to come, is to find solution to pay my bills and to have time for 'plans' like above...life is too short to wait until I saved enough money for this and that, how sure are we that we will be able to wait until that day? Really, nobody knows what's going to happen tomorrow, or even next second...live here and now..

Here and Now...

Facebook

2011-09-22T00:40:00.002+08:00

Each time facebook changes its layout there are people whining and asking Facebook to give them back the previous layout.....and then they adapt...until the next changes again...

It's funny how people always forgot that the "old" was once the "new" that they despised. I think the thing here is not about the changes, it's about adaptation. We adapted to each changes in our life that came in our way, some might be easy to get along and some are hard to digest. The similarity between Facebook and our real world is, we don't get to choose when/what kinda changes is going to happen. We just have to accept it.

The conclusion of the post.....

SHUT UP AND ADAPT THE CHANGES OR YOU QUIT FACEBOOK......STOP COMPLAINING LIKE AN OLD LADY....opps I mean like a whining, unmarried old lady....

Cancer

2011-09-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you...

then what?

2011-08-21T14:46:00.003+08:00

yea, that's a good question and honestly I do not know.

People are asking, what kinda job you are looking for or what you want to do? and again, I do not know...because to me, looking for a job is more like looking for what I CAN do rather than looking for what I WANT to do...if you know what I mean...so, until I really get one, my answer will be....whatever that I'm capable of, I'll give it a try.

alright, back to the resignation mode....another 40 days to go yorrr~~~ it feels like forever but then again I have so much more back log to clear....I hope I dun have to OT on my very last day or it'll seriously be FML -_-

JOB, Y U NO COME AND LOOK FOR ME INSTEAD??!!

seiously, this Y-U-NO guys are awesome shit!

时间的承诺

2011-06-26T15:31:00.002+08:00

周迅：“我非大齐不嫁”；

刘烨：“我非谢娜不娶"；

姚晨："最适合我的人是凌潇肃"；

梁洛施评李泽楷：“他和我还有孩子们就是一家人呀”；

谢霆锋：“我爱她，愿意用生命去拼”。

周迅单身了，刘烨娶别人了，姚晨离婚了，梁洛施分手了，锋芝也解散了....

有人说，承诺就是一个骗子说给一个傻子听的....

周杰伦唱过

“........信誓旦旦给了承诺全被时间扑了空”

那个曾经非你不娶的人未必是个骗子

只能说，承诺是有期限的真心话

当初许下的诺言，都是出自于真心

但时间久了，会过期

承诺都败给了时间

Shut Up Brain!

2011-06-25T03:26:00.003+08:00

Dear 3am...

I've not meet u...wide awake for a while now...

wouldn't say it's really pleasant to meet you again, but thank you for your companion thru the "thinking" time...

life is all good....but somehow it feels like something is missing...like the life I'm having now is not real...like living someone else's life instead of mine....

I duno why am I thinking so much...nonsense mostly...

picture source:timothywinchester.com

My Wish

2011-06-05T13:26:00.003+08:00

Dear God

All I'm asking for, is a REAL weekend. A weekend which I can feel excited about on a friday night, without having to worry the undone works laying on my work station...A weekend which I can just spend the morning reading newspaper and have a cuppa coffee with my mum, without having to rush back to office for an unpaid OT......

it's a sign of ~~aging~~ growing up, when what you're asking for is not something you can purchase with cash or credit card *smile*

Getting Crazy

2011-04-17T08:52:00.003+08:00

A follow up to my last entry..I've taken back resignation letter.

guess I'm gonna stuck here for a lil' bit longer..

and now.......

*regretted*

but...it'll be all good...we'll survive...

finally....a sense of catching up!

Of Resignation

2011-04-10T11:56:00.005+08:00

and so I did it.....

after much consideration....and a few deep breath
I handed in my resignation letter, and a few discussions with my AM and SM....
I was actually quite firm with my decision, but now I have second thought...
they offer me a deal, which I think it is quite tempting...for me at least
now we're just waiting for the approval from HR, if everything goes well I'll withdraw my letter next week..but till then, the status is still unclear...

I must say I din plan to use resign as a tool to bargain. I was really quite upset that my workload and my salary did not weight the same....but now since they can offer me a better deal, I shouldn't reject it...I shall see what lies ahead of me..

that aside, the conversation between my SM and myself is kinda.....funny :)

Me: Wendy *hand in letter*
W: *with very shocking expression* why~~?
Me: I wana do something else....workload too heavy here..and very stress cz there are so many deadlines...
W: then what u wana do?
Me: mmm....maybe event?
W: u think event easy ar? they have even more deadlines u know?
Me: yea but at least these deadlines u miss u dun have to pay penalty....
W: ...by that time u will complain traffic jam la and all cz u have to go hotels, malls for function...
Me: good ma, can meet more people...
W: here oso we can meet people ma...
Me: where got? we only go boardroom and meet directors...all old man
W: *giggle* there, u can meet auditors..most of them are around your age what..u go somewhere else u can not meet auditors...
Me: why must I meet auditors??

**********************************

Me: Workload so heavy, almost every weekend I have to come back..and Sunday I have to work oso..I got no rest..and my mum is complaining that I go home so late everyday..even weekend oso hv to work...
W: who ask you to come back? its not healthy...
Me: then my work cannot finish how? client chasing...
W: I will get one more people in to share the port folio..then it will lighten your workload...now u go back bye bye~
Me: ......no, I cannot go back now, must settle this today
W: nah u see...now u can go back early u dun wan...go faster off ur pc and go back...bye bye~ it's settled
Me: NO~ *duno to laugh or cry* den my letter how?
W: I din see any letter

=.=

and the conversation went on n on beating around the bushes...until I have to slightly shouted at her...."Wendy! that's not the point!!" =.=

Shall update again when I have an absolute answer later ;)

till then, wish me luck...

The 2012 Prophecy

2011-03-13T09:19:00.004+08:00

Let's just believe it's gonna happen.

Each time a catastrophe like this struck off, all you can see over fb is all this what they called "prophecy" circulating around. Somehow, I do believe that 2012 is gonna happen..but seriously..after a trauma like this, circulating all these videos around telling people that we're all gonna die is not helping. As if the world has not enough to worry about..

Like I said earlier, let's just believe it's gonna happen. Even it's not, we're gonna die one day..so what's the difference? If 2012 prophecy really does exist, we're all dying together..it din look so scary ain't it? With tragedies like this, some people may have long gone before they reach 2012. so start counting your blessings instead of whining over every little things.

Each disasters only taught us the same lesson: be thankful, be contented, be happy.

Dream as you'll live forever; live as you'll die today.

Something else

2011-02-27T15:14:00.002+08:00

Life is too routine....
and it's nothing bad about having a routine life...except that it's routinely boring..
it's way too imbalance between work and play...
I dun even feel excited about friday night anymore, no such thing as TGIF..not at this point of time..all I'm looking forward is payday, and public holiday...and MC wtf

it's even more frustrating when the correlation between income and workload is insignificant. not that I'm not thankful for what I have, but being thankful doesnt mean that I am content with what I had...there are more to life than work, and I'm so gonna get out of this place to explore the world. FB is so evil, it make u see how different your life is as compare to your peers. I admit, I envy everyone else's life except my own. they've explored half the globe and I'm still stuck here doing pointless resolutions, minutes and agreements...

I need something else, something to spice up my life..there must be a change! I duno when but I gonna get out of this routine before I go crazy..

I can has different life!!!!! ROAR~!!

I decided

2011-02-20T09:01:00.003+08:00

to take this seriously.....
like SERIOUSLY!!!!!
cz I'm round like a ball and can bounce back n hit you....

CNY is evil....

Incapable

2011-02-02T00:46:00.002+08:00

workload is still crazy..I dun remember when it was any less crazy since I joined.

Boss: "Penny, these documents came in two weeks ago have u do anything to it?"
Me: "err...not yet"
Boss: "and that one?"
Me: "...haven..."

when u have nothing to do, u feel incapable;
when u have alot to do, u feel incapable too......

I wan my holiday NAU~!!

Gong Hei Fatt Choy

2011-01-30T14:28:00.003+08:00

CNY is just days away, which means the eating spree will begin in no time.....

wishing everyone a Happy Chinese New Year and dun eat too much, here's a warning from Chihiro:

Gong Hei Gong Hei~

Twenty-11

2011-01-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

Ola..Happy New Year readers (if there are still any around)

so here's the beginning of a brand new year..and I have no time to wrap up my 2010 in a blog post like the previous years..feeling lazy to run thru the year again because as far as I can remember my 2010 was mostly about work...ofcz I did some breakthrough during the year...things like running a 10km marathon and came back alive....that was a real breakthrough I tell u judging from the fact that I never join any...jogathon during school time dun count! and also joining treasure hunt for the first time and won 5th prize out of 50 cars...woohoo~

ok la the rest please refer to the archive..if anyone care. To cut the long story short, I found a job, met a group of awesome people...together we did whole lot of crazy stuff..job sucks but we enjoy each moment together..met up with close friends and had lunch/dinner/drinks from time to time..conquered Gua Tempurung, made some food hunt trips to Ipoh/Melaka/Penang..planned a fail surprise bday dinner.....HAAHAHAHAH that was pretty much of it.

for year 2011, there is only one resolution on my list...that is to be thankful for every little things around. because 幸福不是必然的

Stop and Stare

2010-12-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

I should probably stop..before it gets out of hand.

or we're all gonna hurt REAL bad.

态度

2010-11-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

凡事都要尽力争取一次
但如果争取过，尽力过
却还不得要领
那就算了

没有什么东西是非要不可
没有什么人是无可取代
在你花光所有力气
费尽所有心思
得到它的时候
才发现其实你并没有那么想要它
那会是什么样的感觉?
尽力就好，不要强求

..........很爱想太多

Accomplishment

2010-11-23T23:32:00.004+08:00

The Company is doing the staff appraisal thingy and one small section of the self assessment is to list down your accomplishment through the year......I swear I was tempted to put "met a group of AWESOME friends" as one of the accomplishment.

I think I am a very very lucky girl..because I always met nice and fun people everywhere I go. let it be the primary, high school, college, work place and even national service...I always get to hang around with fun and noisy people...

If I were to die today, the friends I made would be my greatest achievement thus far. Thank you for making each and everyday of my life worth while.

I LOVE YOU YOU YOU AND YOU
xoxo

Sorry that I loved you

2010-11-15T00:10:00.001+08:00

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And Im so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love， for wasting your time

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won`t make any difference tonight
But im hopin "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right （tonight）
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you （I was falling in love）
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time

I`m sorry that I loved you
I`m sorry that I hurt you
I`m so sorry that I loved you
I`m so sorry that I hurt you

I`m sorry that I loved you....

For you..

Bring it on

2010-11-04T00:13:00.002+08:00

This was months ago...
now it just got worst..

but I believe I have super power...
this will not kill me!!

just one more day to go...and I'll be enjoying in Pangkor~
bring it on....
nights!

p/s: am getting a promotion, and a wee bit of increment...hmm not that bad huh?

Bizarre Love Triangle

2010-11-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday?
-Frente, Bizarre Love Triangle-

People changes over time....
and I can only hope that we are all changing for the best...

Effing Pissed

2010-10-16T01:34:00.004+08:00

I really don't mind to be the joke sometimes.....
but when the same joke is to be repeated a gazillions time.......it became an insult.

How would you feel when you're seriously telling people around you something, trying to get some message across and all they can react is laugh? and you know from the bottom of your heart that they are laughing at the way you talk, and not paying a single bit of attention to what you just said?

I can tolerate it the first few times, but after so long.......I just wana say...

F*** OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you dun need to have very good manner, but I do think I deserve the very basic respect from you.

OR you can continue doing it, we'll see how far I can tolerate this.

Octoberfest

2010-10-11T23:40:00.003+08:00

I'm not referring to the event in Munich, but the meaning literally at it's surface.

It's a festive and eventful October so far...been away from KL for continuously two weekends and it was tiring yet amazing..

I enjoyed the refreshing trip to Cameron with my besties since highschool...

I had a wonderful first time experience joining the treasure hunt to Penang with my colleagues and had wonderful food hunt along the way back to KL the next day :)
*and we won the 5th place out of the 50 cars*

My mates had officially graduated! Too bad I couldn't join them, but I am very proud of them! Congratulation Batch 5!!! and ofcz Batch 6 too!!

and one very thrilling news on 10.10.10 was....Rachel Khoo is engaged to Mr Sha!!!!!
Congratulation Mrs Sha...he is not that kayu after all...quite romantic maaaaa hahaha I'm so very very very happy for both of u!

I hope the remaining days of October will be good too...

你不会懂我的

2010-10-02T00:43:00.003+08:00

不想深入解释些什么
但..............
你(们)是不会懂我的

神啊! 我需要更多正面的能量!

如果每一天都要用别人的不幸来提醒自己有多幸运，多幸福
那就太悲哀了
我不要变成那条可怜虫!

睡觉去~
明天要去玩.....掰~!!

Waking up at the September end

2010-09-30T00:04:00.003+08:00

Exercise release endorphins...

but why do I still feel f**king pissed!?

I think at times, we just wana be a stupid sadist..
not because we're unhappy, but because we just wana feel sad and gloomy for God knows what reason..

and I dun even understand what am I trying to say..or does it even make sense

I am just effing stress and pissed and gahhhhhhhhh

this is what happened when workload > salary

单身久了

2010-09-26T14:17:00.002+08:00

在微博看到这么一段

一个人单身久了，就不想去恋爱，会感觉朋友越来越重要；
一个人单身久了，就不想去逛街，会越来越喜欢在家听歌；
一个人单身久了，就变得成熟起来，会比以前越来越爱父母；
一个人单身久了，就买很多鞋子，会独自去很多很远的地方旅游；
一个人单身久了，就不经意悄悄流泪，会在众人面前什么都无所谓。

哇噻，我是一边看一边点头!
除了最后一句啦
又没死人，流什么泪....

Dear wtf

2010-09-18T00:37:00.004+08:00

I think my email got hacked...

I think my whole address book received the same email..even myself =.=
cz I checked my email after reading Yong Long's message and I got the exact same email from 'myself'..

T__T what do I do nau?

Dream

2010-09-12T22:30:00.003+08:00

I envy people with dreams...
I really do
because mine is no where to be found
Am I dreaming for something?
the answer is absolute
but
the question is
what?

no one knows

红豆

2010-08-31T22:04:00.005+08:00

我们应该可以高喊 “友谊万岁!”
但 “友谊永固” 是骗小孩的
至少，对我来说
它已经不存在了
因为我们都已改变太多

从那里开始时间有了不同转速
我们再也不站在同一个地面

如果人生就像骑脚踏车
那可能这个路口
你遇见了谁
一起骑了一段路
分开后再遇见
各自看过了不同的风景
体验了不同的经历
很难再回到当初了

那是无奈
也是定律

即使再见面成熟地表演
不如不见

不过，一起走过的那些路
那些回忆
是很珍贵的
感恩啊!

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽.....

应该没有比这个更贴切的歌词了

想做就做

2010-08-28T17:13:00.002+08:00

星期六下午
老爸在家赖了一个下午
忽然想要煮羊肉汤
就自己驾车到附近的大卖场去买材料
现在就在厨房里忙进忙出

我也好想像老爸那样
想做什么就去做
我真的有很多事想做
但好像一直都有不知名的东西在绑手绑脚
一直在等
等适当的时间
可是什么时候才是“适当”的时间?
没有人知道

我还是......一直在等!
等死啊! 等

Analysis

2010-08-24T00:16:00.003+08:00

this is easy. take a pen, draw a line in the middle of the paper, and start to list down the pros and cons which ever with the longer list win.

Question is, do u compare in quantity or quality?

Argh~ headache!
I really dun think I can cope any longer...every single day is dreadful..

a question with no answer.....yet

better sleep. good night world. okaybai~

I've an update

2010-08-22T00:01:00.003+08:00

Haven been doing proper blogging...like how I used to write in the past..

and this will still be an improper update aka short, random and unorganized...because there are way too much of ~~writing~~ typing at work.

actually, there is only one main thing I wana share. WHEN I WENT MAMAK LAST NIGHT, THERE WERE A GROUP OF UNCLE EATING DURIAN AND SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF OUR TABLE!

Eff this shit! I stood up and changed to the furthest table IMMEDIATELY!! heck, how can they allow people to bring durian to mamak?!

okay, enough of durian. I can almost smell it now just by typing it EWWWWW

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我以为认真去做就能实现我的梦
以为写首好歌走路就能抬起头
以为骑摩托车旅行就能变英雄
现在的我失去了冲动

...
........
香格里拉在哪里让我们去找寻

我也要我的香格里拉!

就到这

2010-08-20T00:55:00.002+08:00

我头快炸了，但我是超人!

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*******
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好的坏的做了选择
我们就到这
纵然会难以割舍又能如何
说好了
这个时刻不互相指责

dedicated to friend.

Adios, once again

2010-08-16T00:30:00.004+08:00

Goodbyes are still hard, even after tons of practices.

Just when I started to get use to have her to hang out with again, she left already. A hello lead you to another goodbye. but then again, it's vice versa :)

I'll be looking forward to the next round we meet. I hope it won't be too long till the next time.
See you soon, R.

The sky is the limit

2010-08-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

...and I thought I almost hit the sky today.

bright future?

it's ain't no sunshine after rain at the moment..

Sunshine!

2010-08-05T00:43:00.002+08:00

a ray of sunlight...
bright future ahead...I like what I am seeing :D

鱼- 陈绮贞

2010-08-03T00:14:00.003+08:00

怎能不爱陈绮贞?

RSVP

2010-07-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

they say time changes everything
adulthood brings lies, hatred and argument
it's true, not all friendships are long lasting
ours, will be preserved, life long, permanent

-Rachel Chee, 2006-

picture credit to Henry Goh

The Weekend

2010-07-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

in RSVP style...

I had a blast last weekend! the sleepover at Rachel's, the pillow talks, the gifts, the i-touch games, the shopping, the lunch, the mid night football, the dim sum, the movie....

I never remember spending weekend in such a fun way, for a long long time now...it feels like time suddenly went back to 3 years ago...I love moments spent with my babes!

nothing changes over time....well...almost nothing..weight is a different story.

Holiday..I want

2010-07-06T00:05:00.003+08:00

Venice'd be nice :)

If I can afford, I'll leave without a second thought...
I need to travel around before I get old and senile....

....if only, we don't have all the commitments, responsibilities etc.

时间

2010-07-02T00:03:00.002+08:00

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前

无法不认同
时间是治疗所有伤口的良药
因为它只会往前走
带你离开你受伤的时间点
就算你的世界对你而言
在这一刻瓦解，崩溃
它也不会为你停留
也从不为谁停留

如果我可以站在时间面前
看着一切事情的发生
应该就像看着一部电影
在某个时间点上
发生某些事情
可是电影不会因为这些事而中断
故事还是要继续
电影快结束的时候
你会忘了事情的细节
但你记住了在那段时间的那些感觉

.......我又在浪费时间去思考"时间"
睡觉去~~~~~~~~~~

好久不见

2010-06-21T00:33:00.002+08:00

喜剧默片的背后
戏子的内心世界
又有谁真的了解?
MV与音乐的强烈对比
是不是我们的最佳写照

好久不见，
朋友们，
................和我自己。

Death and the lesson behind

2010-06-19T01:48:00.003+08:00

...and death reminds us how fragile our life can be....again.

I only met him a few times, during gatherings..
din talk much, maybe just a hallo and good bye..
to know that he died in such a tragic way, is disturbing..
and I hope that the remaining family members will survive..

It'll be a tough journey ahead of them, but I pray and believe that they'll pull it through.

May you rest in peace, Joash.

Life is short, times are hard, the road is long, with many winding turn. - Miranda Bailey, Grey's Anatomy.

Something to talk about

2010-06-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

To whom it may concern,

All I can say is, don't take your friends for granted. If you are not happy or having any problems, we are definitely more than willing to listen. we are your friends, not your punch bag..dun release all the stress you have on us without even giving us a chance to know what's going on. and let's face it, who the hell in this world has no stress?

Just because you are tension doesn't mean you have all the reason in the world to be rude to others. You are a grown up, so act like one.

Ola~

2010-05-30T13:25:00.003+08:00

New Layout!

gonna use this temporarily, because I did something to the old one out of boredom and I regretted because it freaking screwed!

and this one is screwed as well because the stupid date is incorrect and I duno how to make it right...

it's a happy yuppy May-June :)
Yi Horng's back home, Kx back home, and next....BFFL back home!
cannot wait...

Twenty-Four

2010-05-18T00:26:00.003+08:00

link

Happy one year older~
wiser~
happier~
slimmer~
prettier~
healthier~
richer~

:P

It's Weekend

2010-05-15T02:11:00.002+08:00

Ola~

I should be sleeping, but it's weekend so I thought I should just post something but I dun have much to talk about..life is as bored and as sad as our badminton team wtf saja wana mention about them because it's like the hot topic now. seriously, look at our performance..defeated by Japan, and almost kena tapao by Denmark..and our players bullshit on fb! *tsk tsk*

anyway, will be seeing Ler Pork in a week's time, BFFL in another 32 days or so :D

I miss all the people that I used to hang out with, life is totally different now. the things we do, the things we talk about, *sigh* I is growing older...but then again, no one grow younger...Benjamin Button is another story!

love the mamak, love the night breeze, love the late night talk at the park, love the relaxing moment...

hmm....blogging on random stuff is kinda fun...

Quote of the day:

Life is a handful of short stories, pretending to be a novel. - Anonymous

C'est la vie mon cheri

2010-05-09T02:00:00.005+08:00

I never get bored watching this..it's so classic..so saddening..
and life doesn't always have a happy ending..

indeed..if death is the worst scenario..there is nothing we can't overcome in life!
I think that's the reason why she is so optimistic, because she went through the worst.

Happyness....

2010-05-08T00:46:00.003+08:00

Happiness is when you sleep in in a rainy night,
and wake up to a bright sunny day...
Happiness is when you completed the tasks your superior gave you..
and without much major mistake..
Happiness is when you can buy your parent a movie, a dinner,
with your own money..
Happiness is a sip of coffee..
Happiness is a good movie..
Happiness is counting down the days...
Happiness is good company..
Happiness is talking to your bffl
Happiness is Friday night..
Happiness is having dinner with family..
Happiness is when you run faster than the last time..
Happiness is listening to songs that bring back good memories..
Happiness is solitaire
and winning it (by a card) =P
Happiness is LOL
Happiness is Greys Anatomy..
Happiness is when you found a pretty wallpaper..
Happiness is sharing
Happiness is...........living

Happiness came from many many little things.....
and these are my definition of happiness...

Everyone is trying to accomplish something big, not realizing life is made up of little things. -Frank A. Clark

IDUNLIKEYOU

2010-05-02T10:15:00.002+08:00

Lately I found myself feeling so annoyed at some people. what shock me was that the feeling of dislike/annoyed came in to the picture so suddenly. I duno how I can just dislike some body over night. it's like suddenly everything from this particular person is unacceptable. the way she talks, the thing that she said, etc.

well, maybe there are reasons behind this but I just choose to ignore the fact that "I dislike this person" until one point of time it explode. and everything from him/her become unbearable.

there's this one thing of yourself that you can't control, is feeling. You can't force yourself to like someone who you don't. nor you can force someone else to like you.

I won't last a day without you

2010-04-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

I can't make this song stop playing in my head...

Notice

2010-04-21T00:45:00.001+08:00

Penny Gan had signed up for the KL marathon 2010, 10km.

wish me luck. full stop.

Dead End

2010-04-16T22:55:00.007+08:00

The situation is obvious..
everyone can see that it's a dead end..
people told me,
that this will lead you to no where..
but I can't control my feet to walk down the road..
even thou I know it from the beginning that I will be disappointed..
and will have to turn back when I reach the end of it..
I still have to keep walking..
because the journey walking towards the dead end....
is full of uncertainty...
or I'll call it surprises...
before reaching the end...
anything can happen..
and I'd like to hope for the best....:)

酸葡萄

2010-04-05T16:56:00.002+08:00

寓言故事说
狐狸吃不到高挂的葡萄
便说它是酸的
这样或许有些啊Q精神
但至少狐狸心里会比较好过
可是为什么人却认为
得不到的永远是最好的?
而握在手里的
永远比不上别人的
然后越想就越难过
越难过就越想得到
可是最后大家都忘了
到底是真的想得到
还是只是心有不甘

At the Junction. Adios

2010-03-31T23:22:00.004+08:00

It didn't ring the bell that I might not be able to see you anytime soon in near future, until the point that we part.

3 years passed by too fast. When I drove out of the mall, passed by the road that I used to drop you home, passed by your housing area which you have stayed for 2 years or so. Now I saw the house but knowing that you are no longer living there makes me feel bitter..it's like everything remain the same from the outside, but all it left, was just memory.

There again, we reached the junction of the road where we have to decide our path and move on with our life. Someday in future, we might meet at another junction, or we might not even meet at all...I am really happy that we've been through such a long journey together. There were memories that I'll treasure, friendships that I'll not trade for anything in the world.

So this is it, a goodbye at this junction...until we meet again!

*I is damn sad.....I is crying T___T*

Today

2010-03-26T00:43:00.003+08:00

is one of those very rare days that I feel good~

everything...well almost everything seem to be in the correct place..
and I'd like to keep this feeling with me for a little while..

I love this feeling...
feeling the 'right'

星期天

2010-03-21T14:14:00.003+08:00

星期天下午
在餐厅最显眼的位置
对面的空位子
原来
一个人的午餐
可以很自由
却也很孤单
一小时像一辈子
身边吵闹的人声
阻止不了孤寂的吞噬
入口的绿茶变苦涩
事过境迁
没有人能回到从前

Surface

2010-03-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

I talk a lot...

I think the whole world knows that..

but what the world didn't know is...

sometimes, it's an obligation to talk...

忙

2010-03-08T00:46:00.004+08:00

最近生活.........
很忙碌
忙工作，忙打工，忙交际.......
忙得我几乎没有多余的时间给我自己
但为什么
越忙却越觉得空虚?

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爱到疯癫苦的酸的无所谓
......伤了痛了都没感觉..
......你要我等你到哪个期限我都奉陪...
.......
彻底失眠就在没有你的夜
我把你放在我记忆的深处
就这样想你不想睡
....

爱到疯癫
......值得吗?

So long, Goodbye..

2010-03-04T23:40:00.005+08:00

it's always bitter to say goodbye..but I am fortunate enough to have the chance to say it because I came to know you before you leave...

it'd been a great 2 months...wishing you all the best in the future...

Statue of Liberty...
more like Statue of AT

we'll meet again~
bye bye Ally..

After 365 days

2010-03-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

就等这一刻!

我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有，
我的灵和魂魄不停守候在你心门口，
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流,
藏在无边无际小小宇宙，
爱你的我~

guitar solo....AWESOME!
cried so much right after the first note came out T__T

圈圈

2010-02-28T11:49:00.002+08:00

有的人渐渐走进这个圈圈..
有些人慢慢淡出...
有的人踩在圈圈边缘...

有的人无法归类...
不在圈圈内,不在圈圈外,也不在边缘.....

Dear Rachel

2010-02-18T23:32:00.006+08:00

Dear Rachel,

it'd been 230 days (I really did count!!) since you left to Sweden..I is missing you as usual..why did I wanna write something about you suddenly? because you appear in almost every entries in my blog before 2008 and it reduce drastically after 2008...and I'm afraid I might forget about you ~~because I have Alzheimer~~ hence here's a post to remind myself

hahah, okok..just kidding...

I really miss you heaps, you know when at times you were less busy and have time to think about people around you..you always pop up ~~and scare~~ me honestly, the image of us going shopping or doing anything random together seem so faraway...it feels like it was decades ago since we last did shopping together..but the feeling of us going out, shopping, singing, dancing, eating, laughing etc were still so clear...I could still remember how I used to smile from the heart when I saw ur car coming each time when we were going out..

I din know how to describe, you are like an old friend...and a new friend..old because I've known you through the years; new because you've been away for awhile, and I'm waiting to meet the new you =)

I guess this post is going nowhere, and I duno how to end this...hmm...I guess I should end it with some OLD pictures...

I bet you din know I can multitask....LIKE THIS!

I miss you!!!!

I duno about you, but this picture gave me a BFFL feel
hhaha

The end of moomoo year...

2010-02-13T17:44:00.004+08:00

*roar*

let's say goodbye to the holy cow and welcome the holy tiger :P

I had been celebrating aka eating so much since 2 weeks ago =.= and I had 3 lou sang thus far....CNY is not even here yet

anyhoo~ I wish all of you a prosperous year ahead,may the year of tiger be filled with success, happiness for you and everyone around you :)

*cheers~*

This Week

2010-02-07T08:56:00.002+08:00

I'll call it a "meet old friends week"

I love how we can talk about old times, the days we used to share blah blah blah..I know, it's a sign of aging *sigh*

I dunno if the lack of blog entry has anything to do with aging but I just don't find blogging about every little thing in my life interesting anymore. unless there are really something unique/funny/scary/sad/happy that I MUST share with the world, like I'm pregnant wtf..that is a different story altogether. other than that, what is the point of telling you what I did, where I went and who I meet? definitely the effect of aging..

This post is going no where, I should stop here.

p/s: my bffl is coming back! whee~~~~~ *jumping around with joy*

Notice

2010-01-23T01:08:00.003+08:00

Boo!
I've obviously lost the mojo in blogging........as you've already noticed by now

currently having mental constipation..hopefully will resume soon!
I hate reading the same thing...

okay! buhbye~

手痒

2010-01-12T00:08:00.003+08:00

泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住
不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

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点了两杯咖啡
聊着近况靠着椅背
天色太黑
却盖不掉心里多出的空位
单独的约会
是机会还是误会?
逞强的滋味
总是让人太狼狈

上半段是歌词
下半段......手痒痒写的
用华语，因为他看不懂! 哈哈

Law of Least Effort

2010-01-11T00:50:00.003+08:00

Hallo~
How was the first week of the year treating you? I hope it's all good..

I am pretty much enjoying and accepting my life as it occur, I guess in that way you meet less disappointment because u have less expectation. But then, just by merely accepting everything that come it's way is not a total ideal style of living too...without expectation, goals or target in life, there will not be improvement. haih, why am I always so confuse like that?

Damn, I dun even understand what I just typed. I just read something about the Law of Least Effort and I thought it was really awesome...

The Law of Least Effort

This law is based on the fact that nature’s intelligence functions with effortless ease and abandoned carefreeness. This is the principle of least action, of no resistance. This is, therefore, the principle of harmony and love. When we learn this lesson from nature, we easily fulfill our desires. In Vedic Science, the age-old philosophy of India, this principle is known as the principle of economy of effort, or “do less and accomplish more.” Ultimately, you come to the state where you do nothing and accomplish everything. This means that there is just a faint idea, and then the manifestation of the idea comes about effortlessly. What is commonly called a “miracle” is actually an expression of the Law of Least Effort.Least effort is expended when your actions are motivated by love, because nature is held together by the energy of love. When you seek power and control over other people, you waste energy. When you seek money or power for the sake of the ego, you spend energy chasing the illusion of happiness instead of enjoying happiness in the moment. When your actions are motivated by love, your energy multiplies and accumulates–and the surplus energy you gather and enjoy can be channeled to create anything that you want, including unlimited wealth. There are three components to the Law of Least Effort–three things you can do to put this principle of “do less and accomplish more” into action. The first component is acceptance. Acceptance simply means that you make a commitment: “Today I will accept people, situations, circumstances and events as they occur.” This means I will know that this moment is as it should be, because the whole universe is as it should be. The second component is responsibility. This means not blaming anyone or anything for your situation, including yourself. This allows you the ability to have a creative response to the situation as it is now. All problems contain the seeds of opportunity, and this awareness allows you to take the moment and transform it to a better situation or thing. The third component to the Law of Least Effort is defenselessness. This means that you have relinquished the need to convince or persuade others of your point of view. If you relinquish this need you will in that relinquishment gain access to enormous amounts of energy that have been previously wasted.”

it looks really ideal to me at some point of time because I just thought "OMG, this law totally rocks!" it's truly a convenient law for the lazies (Sun, 2010) but on second thought, it's not really practical...how to accept everything as it occur and take it as it should be when by nature human being tend to plan out MOST of their life few steps in advance? How to not blame anyone else or ourselves for a situation when it is obviously someone else or our fault? How to be defenselessness when defense is something we do to protect ourselves? either verbally or physically...

I guess it's time to sleep..there isn't any absolute manual to teach you how to live a happier life anyway..everyone go figure it out on ur own, just pray that you dun learn it the hard way...

Epilogue

2009-12-30T00:32:00.017+08:00

Ola~

I've not been doing some serious blogging lately. I do realize that okay, Mr. Lim aka Mr. Grace u can stop reminding me each time u see me =P

okay, so we have one more day left to 2010. Like I said before, first 2/3 of the year was the zaman kegelapan of my life. I've almost failed everything I have in my life and I'm really glad that I've got over it and now I'm standing on my own feet again. I can't imagine where will I be if I din manage to pull it through. and the remaining 1/3 of the year was the best time of the year, or I would say it's the best time of my life.

Stepping into 2010, it'll be a brand new start. I've come to another chapter of my life. I am totally thrilled about the days ahead me. I was never this hopeful for the new year to come, and I think it's a good sign =)

let's look at what I've gone through in the year 2009. *only some good ones*

New year eve count down at The Curve
excuse the hairstyle *ahem ahem*

Penang Trip! I miss the seafood we had...

Malacca 1 day trip with Psychos...
great food with great people..

caught in a sumo fight in St. Patrick day..
n stop starring at the nipples, I feel offended wtf

prank a poor fella named Yung Lin
He stood there for at least a minute, blindfolded.
Namoamitabah, karma goes to Bob please.

accidentally celebrated my 33rd birthday
10 years in advance FML

bid my BFFL goodbye at the airport

Gathering with Horng, HC and Celeste at Fronterra, Jaya One
*caption doesnt really match with the picture bt it was taken the same night*

Steamboat at Tshui Sun's
because I only have picture of the food,
hence this picture.

Gathering with psychos after 54321 months

I made my brother cried on his 21st birthday
by making him a surprise video....
and I'm quite satisfied with the end product....look at him!

Halloween party 2009~

Vince's homecoming dinner
which cost us a bomb...but really nice~

alright, that's pretty much of it, the x'mas photos are still not here yet but well, u noe how x'mas pictures gonna be like...presents, santa hats, food.....etc so u imagine la lol okay I shall go off now, I'm afraid if I continue any longer it'll be 2010 already.

Goodbye 2009 and welcome 2010~

Sneak Peek

2009-12-20T18:10:00.004+08:00

Pictures taken by my brother...yea he was one of the photographer of the night *envy*

要记得

2009-12-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

人生必须经历的事有很多
有些事或许不是自己想做的
但是多年以后再回头看这些事情
可能会庆幸自己曾经参与过

-阿西爸爸-

Wrong

2009-12-08T02:10:00.001+08:00

Doing the wrong thing at the wrong time...

I hate!

最熟悉的陌生人

2009-11-30T02:07:00.003+08:00

外表看似友谊万岁
内里可能是千苍百孔
因为曾经经历过
所以明白
那种比陌生还陌生的熟悉
有多难忍受

曾经密不可分
曾经一起遨游
曾经一起熬夜
曾经无话不谈
曾经享受沉默
曾经分享快乐
曾经分担哀愁
也曾经分享过伟大和可笑的'梦想'

当这一切都只剩下曾经
友情也只剩下虚名
唉~
我可以不要再认识
'最熟悉的陌生人' 了吗?

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I miss her already...
I like how we never have problems,
how we never have major conflicts,
how we enjoy each other's company,
how we can always COMMUNICATE

I miss US...

FTS

2009-11-25T15:10:00.002+08:00

Ever wonder why those whom you share your best interests with will always remain as your friends,

and

the one person who never care will always be in your heart...

This is what u call......

LOVE?

heck no!

this is 犯贱! wtf

Of Sony, Photography and Nature

2009-11-09T00:34:00.018+08:00

I went for a 3D2N photography camp in Frim as a crew last week and I must said I've experienced and learned new things....and of cause when you went for a camp you met new people :)

here are some sneak peek...I'll come back with a more detail entry (hopefully) else this is it la. I still wana blog about the Halloween Dinner night! it was F.U.N

the camp side

going out for a short shooting....
with ponchos that make us look like a plastic bags
and.....garbage bags..

Participants busy shooting the 'breaking dawn' LOL

snap snap snap...up down left right..
every angle makes a different..

proof! I did went for the jungle trail!!

Doesn't it look like a map?
The beauty of nature..
even trees are tolerant with each other wtf

Group pic! spot me..
no prize

I bet u never use such big screen for work before..

It's very nice to use for video or picture editing..
~~big~~ HUGE and clear

Ever use a TV to view ur facebook? HAAHA
I've never seen my profile picture in such a big scale before..

Pictures courtesy to Wee Ling, Horng Yih, and Click! magazine

A Good Year

2009-10-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

I took a little time today (yesterday actually) to go down to the city by train and monorail.....alone
I just thought that the time on the train alone is the perfect time for me to ponder and start planning the road ahead me. I guess it was a fruitful day after all.

I can barely remember when was the last time I ever step foot in Sg. Wang, but this mall look a lil' bit odd during weekdays cuz it's so empty and I dare not go in to any shop because those shopkeepers aka 'young girls' look like they are all gonna eat me alive if I dun walk out their shop with something.

I just walked around the mall for about 45mins to an hour time and I left to take the next monorail back. before I reach the station, I was stopped by this youngster who approach me like a promoter or whatsoever. Just like any other normal people, I instinctively wave to get rid of it. but he followed..as usual. He claimed that he wasn't selling anything just an information so I stopped. I can't really recall what he said, it's something like a voucher or coupon. I just tear it open and when it shows a 'Thank You' I just have to sign for him to show that he is working. otherwise I would win some prize. blah, something like that la. So I agreed, got nothing to loose anyway and can help him to get his job done so why not?

and when I tear it off, it wasn't a 'Thank You' in other words, I won something (kononnya la). He was like so excited and asked me to call his boss to verify. and then he took out newspaper cutout to show me that their company had been publishing ads every month to give out prizes. HAAHAHA the minute I saw I won the prize, I'd been laughing because it look so fake. His acting also damn lousy. I refused to call his supervisor and gave him back the ticket. He was like...u won something u also dun wan ar? LOL I just said I'm rushing home because it's gonna rain...which is true because I din bring umbrella! He knew I was in doubt, and he tried to talk me into making the call by saying I can only show you the newspaper as proof. I just smile and said I'm not interested but inside my heart I was like "yea, I can also show you ALOT OF newspaper cutout on how those innocent young and old ladies got conned"

Moral of the story is: Prizes like cars don't just drop from the sky so don't believe it! walked away even if you won (or they said so). Trust me, you'd rather lost something you thought you have than to really lost something you have.

Oh, one thing I hate about going downtown is, the frigging monorail station is outside KL Central. I have to walk under the insanely hot sun to reach the monorail. and I haven been taking public transport for AGES~~~ hence I can only go around based on my memory. I almost shock to death when I came out of KL Central building. because the usual carpark infront of it is under construction, I used to walk through the carpark to reach the station, suddenly I duno where to go =.= and I had to frigging walk around the construction area to reach the opposite.
It was a good experience anyhow. and I have this good feeling about life suddenly thanx to this trip. I've gained something that I do not know how to put it in words to tell you but I saw sunshine after rain. :)

"You've arrived at a moment in your life of marvelous freedom. No deadlines, no appointments no responsibilities....this is a turning point, an ideal time for you to take a break, look at what fate and Uncle Henry have dumped in your lap and decide what you want to do...." -Charlie, A Good Year

Of Cartoons and Animations

2009-10-21T01:17:00.008+08:00

Some of you may have already know I love SailorMoon series...since God can remember when..but you din know that there are actually a few more series of cartoons and animations that I watched and grew up with...

1. Dragonball

haha okay this is totally at the other end of the pretty soldiers series but I watched! I watched most of it, from Z to GT....wattudo I grew up with 6 cousin brothers who are approx the same age as me..when we were fighting for which cartoon to watch on tv, I always lost to them because all 6 of them will pick dragonball fml I hate democracy!

2. Slamdunk

I read every episode of the comic and started to like basketball..tried to watch NBA live but I found that it was not as excited as reading the comic..I would say the comic is much better that the animation..hmmm dun ask me why I just think so..Kaede is so damn cool that I once dreamed for bf who can play bball..Hanachimi is a total idiot but slam dunk won't be interesting without him..oh just so you know, I represented my class to play bball during primary 6 and no! dun ask about the result...

3. Tom and Jerry

Do I need to explain further? This is one classic of the classic..it's one of the all time favorite!

4. Pink Panther

I miss this ALOT!! I dun see any dvd shops selling this anymore, I wana watch it again because this was sooooo very ancient time ago that I can barely remember the details of it. I saw one the shop in pyramid playing it the other day and I just stood there and watched..

before I go,

My ALL TIME FAVORITE!

p/s: what the hell is happening to Grey's Anatomy?! Izzie really left? I dun like the feeling of the new season!! it's so not the GA we used to watch, too many new faces..I miss George already! I miss when all 5 of them together...

ICQ

2009-10-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

means Idiot Customers' Questions....

There is a reason why I agreed that customers are idiots..because they asked questions like:

1. ..so the journey is five hours sharp right?

excuse me? what kinda question do you think you are asking? I feel like a fool for answering it =.= that is estimation arrival time la...have to depend on the traffic flow of the day also right? FIVE HOURS SHARP right?!!!! wtf

2. ..why isn't my wife picking up the phone?

oh man...I so have to explain this one because he wasn't ASKING he was literally shouting and everyone in the office can hear him...he called his wife who is on the bus coming back from Singapore but he couldn't reached her after trying several calls attempts and text messages..and he thought our driver left her somewhere =.=" and we called our driver and double confirm that the bus is coming back with the correct amount of people when it left SIN....and he asked us this fml... how the hell did we know why isn't your wife picking up the phone????????!!!

I'll most probably come back with another entry with more questions if I happen to encounter more....

customers are idiot! seriously...no joke
*i know..I am customer as well in other settings..but I still agree with this statement!

54321 years ago

2009-10-14T14:24:00.003+08:00

I look like this..and I think I look cute wtf

不要哭

2009-10-11T01:26:00.002+08:00

不要因为一次的失败，不敢再出发!

道路纵使再崎岖，只要能带着微笑，没有跨越不过的障碍。大不了绕路再走 - youzi

Psychos Meet up

2009-10-06T18:37:00.003+08:00

Gathering with Datin Khoo

I hope the next dinner together is not too long away...

p/s: it was a wrong move to stand behind Mr. Lim...see the contrast! =.=

Summer Nights

2009-10-03T18:02:00.004+08:00

6:02pm on a mid autum festival's Sat ..I'm still in the office working other people's shift FML

well, actually I'm not really complaining as there isn't much people traveling today hence it's not so busy..just that I was expecting to go home happily at the afternoon and have a good nap so I can go out at night to have some fun..but I'm very exhausted after 11.5 hrs sitting in the office. so I guess I'll just stay in for the night...celebrate with my series.

I'm going TJ Haus again tmr night! the last time we went was during Rachel's birthday, God that was like 3 months ago. I miss everyone, haven seen most of them for long~ and I hope everyone can make it ;)

What else to update? my life is so dull, I dun have anything interesting to talk about. Why not u tell me your life? interesting life I mean, not everything about yourself, constipation no need to tell me okay wtf I dun really need to know that

p/s: The title has got nothing to do with the entry..I got no title to post and I dun wana put it as random, hence I just fill in with whatever song that I'm listening..damn creative I know :P

I'm feeling lucky

2009-09-27T02:12:00.006+08:00

Just a few words before I head to bed....

I'm planning to stop the part time job in the coach company soon..most probably by Nov..it's not that I'm unhappy with the job but I seriously getting annoyed by those I-bought-your-coach-ticket-hence-I'm-ur-grandfather kinda customers...I'm losing my patient..I'm afraid one day I might just loose it and strangle someone to death...

Customers are idiots (WTJ, 2009) [so totally agree!! I can't remember when exactly but I think I read this somewhere in your blog before]

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We should treasure every moments of our life to the fullest...dun let death reminds us how fragile our life is...

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有的人说不清哪里好，但就是谁都替代不了

----遗失的美好，张韶函

p/s: oh...happy belated birthday to ma darling dearest who is now in Lund enjoying her 32GB ipod touch *sour*
*BIG hugs~*

不全然快乐

2009-09-02T17:19:00.003+08:00

2009年只剩下最后的1/3了
过去的八个月除了失望还是失望

我不全然快乐
虽然很多时候我并没有表现出来
我想说的是我不是在别人面前刻意掩饰一些不开心的情绪
跟你们在一起的时候我是开心的
只是有些事情我不说并不是我不想说
而是我自己都不知道要从哪里说起

我只是觉得我是快乐却又不快乐的
也可能是因为我一直没有一种踏实的感觉
太多的不确定总是让人恐慌
可能是我一直没有认真觉得我一定要什么非做什么不可
随遇而安顺其自然的生活方式
也不见得就会快乐

我最近一直放人鸽子某些人好像生气了
可是我很懒得解释
要编一个美丽的谎言其实很难
所以我选择不解释
不提就当作解决了
我不像以前那么在乎别人怎么想了
这样的改变也不知道是好还是坏

但人生就像我之前说的
不变的是改变
有些事情不想接受有些事情无法不接受
虽然是很无奈
但也没办法

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰

Oh Yeah~

2009-08-25T18:15:00.006+08:00

*Warning: Long post ahead*

I think this is the longest hiatus in my entire blog.

I'm not doing anything productive and at the same time living very unhealthily. Sleeping at 4 or 5am in the morning for 2 weeks now. I think I got this insomnia problem from my dad because he also have sleep disturbance =.=

That aside. It's not the main point anyway.

I've been wanting to blog the past few days, so many things happened within the past 2 weeks. Not only around me but also around the world. The Morakot typhoon in Taiwan, Horng's ~~really~~ short returning trip, gathering with high school mates, dinner with Celeste, Hui Chin and Horng after 54321 years....

As you might alread know, the Morakot typhoon hit Taiwan on the 8th Aug and there were more than 500 lives killed to date. It was such a tragic disaster, I cried reading the news about the landslides that buried the whole Siaolin Village after the heavy downpour. 400 over victims were buried alive. It is very saddening watching them crying and shouting for their late family members who were yet to be found. Reading news like this, apart from feeling thankful that it doesn't happen on us, we hope and pray that the victims can get through this ASAP.

Horng came back from Perth to attend his sister's registration so we met up for some gathering/catch up/gossip/cam whore session. Karena and the girls had throw him a welcome home colorful party. No kidding man, EVERYTHING is colored! I saw sandwiches with blue and pink tuna spread =__= and many many balloons! We had fun snapping pictures away..and because Horng misses mamak too much so we proceed to mamak before heading home.

The next day, met up with S, V, Horng, Henry, Celeste and Hui Chin at Jaya One for dinner. Celeste and Hui Chin came to KL for a short trip to visit friends so we decided to meet up. We had dinner at Frontera, a Mexican restaurant. We had really awesome nachos, very spicy(at least to me) buffalo wings, and great company =) after dinner we went to this bar outside the restaurant for drinks. According to Henry, this bar has all kinds of beer or something like that. and we sat there for about 1 hour plus and decided to do things like this:

and this

and this

and this

must be the alcohol........must be!

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I saw this line on a friend's msn the other day: The only thing that is constant is change

How true is that? I've got so much free time the past 3 weeks and I realized that I've been reminiscing alot about the past. There were so many moments I miss but we can never turn back the time and live it again....

Those baby days...when all you have to do is eat, sleep, cry and play...you don't even have to walk on your own feet.....but we can't go back to those days...

Secondary schools...when we were still in there, we never thought we would miss it so much.

National Service! I certainly miss them...although those were the hardest 3 months ever living in a jungle and sleeping in a camp but these people make it one of the best memories in my life.
Ohh..I look so man!

We can hardly get together like this anymore....very very very hard.....

I miss them!!!! and I can't go back anymore..............
T____T

I was having lunch alone in one u the other day. Walking from old wing to new wing, suddenly I miss my BFFL. Every corner of One u reminds me of her....I miss u heaps babe!

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Remember I said I have a new found idol last year? Recently I'm watching her new series KO3anguo. I think she is doing a pretty good job considering the fact that this is actually her first time acting.

I'm actually more attracted to her songs than the series. Her voice is just so amazing and I can repeatedly listening to that few songs the whole night. I can't wait for her to come up with her own album...The best part is......she is also a fan of YanZi =D

Here's the 2 songs I'm listening every night...

*MUST LISTEN*

泪了 - 曾沛慈

够爱 - 曾沛慈

The truth is...

2009-08-10T01:34:00.003+08:00

Hello world,

I'm still very much alive just in case some of you thought that I was dead or was abducted. I'm sorry for not returning any calls and messages because I was not in the mood to talk or to meet anyone. So I've canceled most of the outing and gathering plans by telling them that I'm busy but the truth is I'm just staying home doing nothing. Please don't feel offended, I just thought that I really need those moments alone and stay in my comfort zone for a little while.

I'd been doing a lot of thinking, or so I call it. Someone once said, everyone did lost their way in life at some point of time. But I think I'm constantly on the search. I don't know where is my life heading to and what am I going to do next. I always don't. As age catches up, this is actually very frustrating. Friends offer their ears, especially when you are studying psychology, you have sensitive friends who notice the changes in you. The thing is, I never like to talk about it. because I know when I start talking I will break down. I may look perfectly ok on the outside but in this whole wide world, I'm the only one who knows that 'hey, you're not okay!' I think that's a defense mechanism, it sealed everything that I do not wish to touch in a bag and cover it up with a cheerful face.

It's funny how I got so thirsty everytime I came home from a gathering or a drinks with friends. Because I talked ALOT when I'm out. By cracking jokes with them, it makes everyone believe that I'm actually okay, including myself. but when I'm back home, back to my room when everyone else were taken away from the picture, I'm actually back to square one. The feeling is like a superstar standing on the stage enjoying the cheers and applauses from the audience but when he step down from the stage he is back to one person, alone. The contrast feeling in between is so huge that it can kill. It's okay if this doesn't sound sane to you but it makes perfect sense to me.

I believe that everything happened for a reason and I still do. So I can always comfort myself that 'It's ok, there must be something better waiting for me in front', if anything goes wrong. As long as I live up to my own expectation, I don't see any needs to seek for others' approval. Unfortunately, we are not living in here on our own. Approval from different parties give us the sense of security, self-esteem and sense of belonging. Their approval make us believe that we are normal and being accepted. Hence, failure and mistakes are not scary, what fear us most is the disapproval and disappointment that come along with it.

Sometimes I look myself in the mirror, I feel like I don't know myself anymore. I am not who I used to be. There are too many things and feelings kept inside and at some point of time it feels like exploding. At times I wish I could cry like a baby, you know like really crying out loud and so I would feel better but I can't! I just can't!!!!!!! There's a voice inside my head telling me to run, run away from all the things and people I know to a place where I can be who I am and who I wana be. but I know it's not gonna happen.

I am writing this because I hope that at least I can be true to my own feeling and be true to myself. The last thing I wana get is the extra attention from friends. so just read this and keep it to yourself, don't ask me anything. =)

The truth will soon be revealed....

Nick Vujicic

2009-07-29T02:26:00.002+08:00

"sometimes in life when u fall down, and you feel like you don't have the strength to get back up, do you think you have hope?"

"because I tell you, I'm down here face down and I've no arms no legs, it should be impossible for me to get back up, but it's not!"

"...and if I failed 100 times. If I failed and I give up do you think that I'm ever gonna get up? NO"

"but if I failed and I try again and again...I just want you to know that it's not the end, it matters how you gonna finish. Are you gonna finish strong? and you will find that strength to get back up.."

the first time I watched this..I cried.
after so long....I still cried Y___Y

...

2009-07-24T01:53:00.002+08:00

原来还有一种感觉,比死亡更恐怖,比失恋更痛!

一个人如果没有活下去的勇气,
至少还有结束自己生命的勇气,
如果两者皆失,
那你还剩下什么?

泪了- 曾沛慈

2009-07-20T16:51:00.003+08:00

天快亮了能不能別離開呢
沉默像首悲傷的歌無聲視線卻模糊了

你要走了也帶走所有快樂
甜蜜的片段散落了你倦了心冷了我哭了

那流星閃過我們許下一個願望
要在一起絕不分離你怎麼放棄了

星空在閃爍像你的眼淚悄悄劃過
當你放開了手離開的時候有沒有一點捨不得我
淚光在閃爍而我的眼淚忍住不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗守候你卻已經遠遠離開我

離開我了夢醒了還剩什麼
我要的幸福消失了你的心曾經屬於我的

那流星閃過我們許下一個願望
要在一起絕不分離你怎麼放棄了

星空在閃爍像你的眼淚悄悄劃過
當你放開了手離開的時候有沒有一點捨不得我
淚光在閃爍而我的眼淚忍住不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候你卻已經遠遠離開我

有過的快樂我都記得
回憶還旋轉著愛怎麼停了我們都淚了~

星空在閃爍像你眼淚悄悄劃過)
當你放開了手離開的時候有沒有一點捨不得我
淚光在閃爍而我的眼淚忍住不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候你卻已經遠遠離開

She is a great singer!

Swedish 101

2009-07-18T11:21:00.002+08:00

Tjenna Rachel,

du ä sockis, grattis!!
Jag saknar dig

okay, that's all I know about swedish...shall pick up some more when I meet my teacher LOL come online more often ya ;)

Post exam moments

2009-07-15T14:17:00.002+08:00

so the exam was over...but without much confident on your paper, you can't really say that it was over officially...

anyway..no point worrying about what was over and what will happen..living in here and now! speaking of here and now..I really need to start practicing it. I've been worrying too much about things in the future and forgot to live. and I've decided to take up some class...let it be painting, music or some random classes..I NEED to do something else! my life is not only about research and report....

This after-exam-period is quite different. We had lunch at lunch box opposite college because I have a thesis briefing later on and some of them gonna rush off for interviews for their internship next semester. so we settle all our stuff and meet up in amp square for some karaoke session...those sammi cheng, BSB and spice girls songs bring us back to all the upper primary and secondary era...

Around evening, we drove all the way to look out point for dinner. first time there and the weather was too hazy yet the night view was still superb! it would be perfect if there wasn't any durian smell =.= I was very exhausted after the dinner but I feel so reluctant to go home..cz the next time I see everyone might be next year! Y___Y I'm gonna miss everyone! miss the class time, miss the library study time...

okay enough, this is not the time to be emo (Sun, 2009).

all the best in your internship, I hope u meet a good boss and treat me lunch when u get pay :P *message to all batch 5 psychos*
and good luck to YOU and ME in thesis!

Library nightmares...

2009-07-11T00:11:00.006+08:00

one more to go and we are done with this sem! ...........hopefully....

been spending time in the library...most of the days

tshui sun the plumber..fixing the pipes! :P

one last paper! let's all K.O. it!

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it'd been exactly one week now....I still haven got a chance to catch up with her online!! I totally hate this time zone difference shit! just manage to send each other offline messages =.= for the first time I appreciate the function of offline messaging..

I hope I dun have to wait until Sept to see u coming online T___T
I miss u BFFL!

Of 2 Es

2009-07-06T01:09:00.005+08:00

Emotional and Exam that is.
not 2 grade E for my papers ok! choyyyy!

It'd been one hell of an emotional weekend...we started to miss her even before we leave LCCT *sob sob* then we spread the emo-ness on facebook like this

and this..

but like I said...we'll get use to it soon because we are happy for her that she found her path in life :)

and then she arrived in London safe and sound

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First paper in another 8 hours time....I can't say I'm well prepared but I am prepared!! for the first time I manage to revise twice for the whole subject!!!!! BIG improvement ok!! I hope I remember all the symptoms and criteria cause there are too many disorders to remember >.<

good luck to me and all the other psychos

It isn't goodbye, it's farewell

2009-07-04T11:13:00.003+08:00

so D moment was here..sent her off at the airport, those who said will cry, did not cry...those who said 'thou shall not cry", cried.

I feel my heart sank when she took the elevator up and out of sight...but I dun feel like crying...maybe I was very much preoccupied with exam mode..after exam when everything back to normal...I think I will start crying T_T

I miss her already! damn it...now I feel so empty....