4 AM

WHY I CANT SLEEP?

perhaps I'm feeling hungry again..damn!

there's something weird in my head again...WHY SO MANY RIDICULOUS THOUGHT? I'm waiting..for something to happen..but I wont know the answer until most probably after boxing day..or next year..fine forget about it...it's probably not the right time to talk bout this yet...oh well..if it didn't happen after all, there's no need to be mentioned anyway...

another thing that is in my head since I finish my paper is the result..dept will be calling either on friday or monday...it scare the shit outta me everytime the phone rang! I receive no call from them on friday...and I hope monday wont have any either..oh I did remember to pray at 11:11 just now....call me superticious whatever...I feel better after that can anot?

I should be sleeping...toodles!

16 more days!

Just rambling

Whoever said: "what you don't know can't hurt you", was a complete moron.

Because not knowing is the worst feeling in the world...what is coming out for the exam? duno. what is gonna happen next second? duno. you've lost your wallet, where? duno. is ur crush having the same feeling as u? duno. will you and ur partner last long? duno. can your illness be cured? duno or getting lost in some place you don't know...

we always need to be in the know. although we would love a lil surprise or two once in a while but we still prefer to know and aware of what is coming ahead. why we care to know? because it make us feel damn secure...yes, mankind love the sense of security!

Of course, that line is applicable some times.....when you knew something that you later wish you didn't know about it at all........

The Best Damn Tour

MTV Asia Awards was held in Genting yesterday. and I just missed it......

YanZi was there! and so was Leona Lewis, PCD, One Republic, The Click Five, Nicholas Teo blah blah blah...dammit! I dun have ticket...neither nor I have transport and company to be there...*sigh*

now the next big thing will be Avril's Live in KL
who wana sponsor me?
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Evolution

okay..I am getting bored at home even thou at times I enjoy waking up late and doing practically nothing but online and glued my eyes to the tv screen...there are things I need to do but I am just simply lazy to start..things like tidy up my room, my study table and my wardrobe...my table is still in a mess like it is before the exam...I need to go jogging as I've put on weight thanx to the binge eating habit I have during exam! and I am just so reluctant to get the exercise plan started..when the weather is good, I feel like staying indoor, when it is really sunny I also feel like staying indoor...can die 'not? haih..

I will get all the plans started soon.........when I have the mood =P

I was looking through some old pictures and I found some pictures of mine...ha hah I have to say I changed ALOT!

what d'ya think?

Life's a bitch

yes, I am back from Pangkor Laut..and the feeling is like coming back to hell from paradise. I will update on the trip later after I submitted most of my major assignments by next week. Life is really a bitch at the moment..I feel really really stressed up!

was in college early today even the class is at 11am cause it'll be friggin hard to get parking by 10ish..so I had my breakfast alone in the cafeteria and came up to library to do my report. I am feeling more comfortable even when I'm left alone now.....someone is sleeping in front of me in the library...HAHA indeed its a nice place to sleep! so cold and quiet less noise compare to foyer....

signing off..goin for class soon! toodle-do~

My Pride =D

before anything else, just look at this.....

I feel proud can? althou it's just a bronze but it's my very first medal in sports okayy??? wei, please look at my size, that explain it all la....

anyway..I'm suppose to finish up my report but damn I'm here bloggin on nothing again..life is pretty hectic and dull lately because there are alot alot research to do..one more training proposal to do and 3 biopsychology's review haunting me!! good thing is...next week will be our mid sem break!

goin to a field trip on friday to a kindergarten somewhere in ss18...gonna have meeting on research project after that and have a gathering with Mel, Cindy, Rachel and Emily..Mel just got back from Seattle!! I can't wait to meet all of them after so long!! gonna be busy busy busy!!

and I sooooo wana watch Prince Caspian!! cant wait to attack the cinema next friday already!! will be meeting up Carol by then...hmm maybe we can catch a movie together?!! haha..hopefully we can lar....

okay..end of this show-off-and-pointless-post....gonna finish up a lil bit more on the report and sleep! I need more sleep..I'd been dozing off while driving back home recently.....I certainly do not wana die on the road *touch wood* it'll be ugly can?!

Of the death of his father

It's always not nice to hear about a death of somebody...It always brought me down a lil when I came across all these news...even thou I may not be close to the death but I feel for his/her family....nothing can be compared to the lost of the love ones!

Got the news that one of my form 6 close buddy's father had passed away yesterday..I was shocked..really..no words can come out from my mouth for few sec...I just din noe wat to say and how to respond. Later I text him and sent my condolence and told him that I will drop by the next day..I feel sad for him and the family and I wish he'll be alrite soon...

and because I involve too much of my personal emotions into some unfortunate incidents around me..I thought I cant be a counselor...this is why I never join the peer counseling group in my college and never will I think of being a counselor...because if I did...I guess I'll be the one who suicide first before anyone else...I just cant handle bad events.....I need alotta time to get over something bad/horrible myself, how d'ya expect me to help others if I cant handle mine?

Be strong Joshua!
may ur dad rest in peace

Things I like about FB

There are reasons why FB is much better than Friendster...

first thing of all....the messaging system that allow us to send out messages to many people at the same time and allow all to read the reply at the same time as well....

it's easier for a few people to keep each other update...as u can see...79 messages posted and still counting =) by the end of the year...I think it will be more than 200

News Feed!! hhe...it satisfied my kepo-ness keeps me update about my friends so I wont be autistic =P

Video!! u can share ur videos here without going thru youtube!! best part is that u can decide who can view the video =D

tag a photo....I have the habit of pointing my cursor to any picture I view now to check for the name....even when I'm not viewing on facebook =.=

comment on photo...and most of the time it turn out to be a forum.....Friendster may have this function as well but I dun get notifications about the comments.....so FB is still better!

Friend wheel.....I like this..it makes u feel as if u have alotta friends wtf! [the YL and Suet's symptoms..they are bad influence tsk tsk]

and lastly...I think they have tighter privacy setting than frenster, which is important..u are the one who decide who can view what kinda information on ur account..

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I'm having super good mood this week! because it was a short study week ;) monday's morning class was canceled and I only reached uni at 3pm..hehe Tues went for 3 hours class and went Sun Med to baby sit kids at the outpatient floor and wed only one class....hided in observation room for one2one assignment the whole afternoon after class and went for the bowling competition for the sports carnival =) made some new frens and had a nice dinner with chu...hehe thanx for coming girls!

gonna have long weekend this week!!but I'm gonna start doin my research =( hopefully everything will go smoothly

ok la..I wana sleep d..althou I only had 2 hours lectures today but I spent my entire afternoon sewing and my evening bowling...very tiring can? *yawn*

happy labour day!

Not always as good as it seem

most of the time we only sees pretty and positive side of something...but when we found out the truth..things are not always as good as they seem...

sometimes it's so hard to express it out to anyone because you know something is just not yours to share/rant..and it's not even possible to blog about it because you care!you care that someone's gonna read it and feel hurt.....

I just feel disappointed when things turn out to be so different from what I interpreted...you know when expectations are not met you feel u'd been let down....

okay...totally pointless entry...off to bed now!

Fuck It, I'm fabulous!

I stumbled upon this group in facebook and made me LMAO...

the list of why are ladies so fabulous:-

1. Face it, we're prettier
2. And even if we're not, we can wear make up, ugly guys will always be ugly
3. We can get free drinks at the bar, and sometimes we don't even pay cover. How's your bank account boys?
4. We can show our emotion without looking like a queer.
5. We don't have something hanging between our legs all the time rubbing against our thighs
6. If we don't like the way we look, we can get plastic surgery without looking like a queer.
7. We have better fashion sense. Guys, wearing a hockey jersey as a shirt isn't attractive
8. So what if it does take 1-2 hours getting ready, we still look hotter than you.
9. We smell better. It's called Deoderant, look into it.
10. We're smarter
11. We can pee sitting down
12. We have boobs
13. We get what we want when we cry
14. We don't have to get our teeth knocked out to settle a fight. We settle arguments like human beings
15. We know how to dance
16. When we go on dates, we don't have to pay
17. We can basically have sex whenever we want. Face it guys, it's easier for us to call you and say "Wanna have sex?" then you call us.
18. We have more outfit options
19. Did I say we're hotter?
20. We're good listeneres and give good advice.
21. It's so easy to give you guys a boner
22. We run your show
23. We get drunk quicker and cheaper
24. Ya, we get periods but atleast we don't wake up with boners
25. WE ARE OVERALL FABULOUS

source taken: Fuck It, I'm Fabulous

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and yea..I've straighten my hair........again, it'd been messy and I tak boleh tahan the ridiculous curl and wave and whatsoever u call it everytime after I untie my hair d so.....

nice boh? say nice....!

happee weekend to all =)

random

HE says:
happee holidays haha
HE says:
enjoying waking up at 12 noon ?
HE says:
haha
peNnY thanx Carol for the coffee!! says:
hhehe
peNnY thanx Carol for the coffee!! says:
ya
peNnY thanx Carol for the coffee!! says:
hows classes so far?
HE says:
not ttoo bad
HE says:
tough
HE says:
3rd year
HE says:
aiii
HE says:
but still good haha
HE says:
u look good btw too
HE says:
haha
HE says:
nice pic

It's really delighting to hear read that.....especially when it's coming from u ;)

Blues no more

okay...enuf with the blues!
I've decided if I were to die today, I dun wana die in a moody and miserable mood...so yes I'm all good now..

As you may know, I'm having my holiday...it'd been a week now and nothing much have been done yet just simply lazying around in the house..waking up at noon..watch Grey's Anatomy..read 'the nanny diaries' on my bed..online..attending psychology night..took alotta pic and attending wedding..oh ya I've 2 cousins getting marry this month..okay actually one had married on the 1st of Mac another one is getting married someday near the end of Mac....so I've to go do some shopping for some nice dress and top heheh...

apart from all that..I really so wana meet up some old mates..some came back from overseas whom I've not met for ages, some other old friends whom I've not met for some times....but I dun have the the car to go out whenever and wherever I want!!Apparently my brother has an better excuse to have the car all to himself when I dun - he needs it for classes and I dun have class now! dammit, what's the different when both of us have class? I still dun get the car....

okay...I'm slowly directing myself back to the cheery mood..so no worries ;) that's all for now people adioz~

Another random..

Class started 2 weeks already...as usual assignments is filling up the free time..since it's a short sem and there are so many public holiday in between tis 7 weeks, you can imagine the workload we have to complete in this short period of time...which also means I should have start working on my assignments and experiments thingy instead of sitting here crapping or Grey's Anatomy-ing.....I screwed up big time last sem and I certainly dun wana struggle again this time around....

anyway, classes were fine so far, course mates are still as psycho as usual plus we merged 2 intakes together so we've got more psychos now but honestly I'd prefer my own class....no offense there =) I just prefer a smaller class...

next week will be kinda busy...busy for assignments, experiment and also busy playing the catching up...lotsa friends to meet and lotsa gatherings will be schedule within the next 2 weeks...it's gonna be a huge challenge how am I gonna allocate the time so that I will be able to take care of everythin im worrying about...hmm i wil figure tat out....

by the way..check this out:









have a nice weekend =)

Weekend Random Babbling..

We should have, but we did not win....I mean the EPL game earlier between Liverpool and ManU arrgh!!! ManU score was sheer luck!! the ball was just so happen bounce on Tevez legs and ran into the net!! Now I wish Arsenal beat Chelsea and so ManU wouldn't secure the first place for long......I wish *sigh*

I was talking to my friend before I'm out for the match, talking bout how we know each other how we became closer....damn..we've been reminiscing alot lately, what's wrong with us? Thinking back, it was soooooo long ago yet the memories was still as fresh as it just happened yesterday..so many sweet moments we had that I wouldn't trade it for the world....but I still wondering what is so significant about the pasar malam and you calling me mashimaro =.="

Twilight is nice!! and I heard the movie is coming out next year, Kristen Steward will be playing the role Bella Swan and Robert Pattinson a.k.a Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter will be playing as Edward Cullen. Thou I thought that he was quite charming in Harry Potter but somehow I think he wasn't the best choice for Edward Cullen!!! Edward Cullen should be much more than that!!!

One Down, More to go =(

Urgh, why didn't I study the tutorial and the review questions??Baumrinds's parenting came out!!! *regretting* never mind, I'm quite contented with the essay I wrote *admiring* and hopefully whatever I dump wrote in it is what the question's asking for..then I guess I will be quite safe for this paper =) anyhow what's done is done, I'm glad and thank god that the first paper just went by....

Had lunch with the gang at McD ss15 after class the paper, it's Gloria's birthday today so we SORTA celebrate with her...and we have some fun with everyone goes "johnny, johnny, johnny, johnny whoop~......" and "fatty hit fatty hit fatty...." and all sort of distracting attention games =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA~!!

Just received email from GSC asking me to log in my account to remain as member, so I logged in and conveniently checked out some upcoming movies...AFTER EXAM I wana watch enchanted, the heartbreak kid, the golden compass and alvin & the chipmunks!! whee~ cant wait...so cant wait!

Okay, I'm done blogging..heading to nap now..can you believe I cant fall asleep the night before the exam?!no shit man, I lay there for 2 hours and then I woke up watch youtube =.=" yea I bet you're sweating like me

In a day

Received 2 passed away news within a day..my grand uncle whom I used to meet up quite often and quite close with had passed away this morning due to cancer, one of my close friend's grandpa had passed away on wednesday night whom I just met on last sunday during her 21st birthday party. Anyhow, grand uncle's funeral was held back in penang, can't make it back. I've pay my friend a lil visit thou..her grandpa passed away peacefully. cheer up dear girl, hope you settle everything as soon..

I've learned that, do not hesitate to tell your family or friends that you love them, cuz you wouldn't know when will be your last time to see them..I LOVE MY PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS, SIBLINGS, CLOVERZ, and ALL MY FRIENDS....

Let's forget about the sad side, I had some fun today in sunway medical playing with kids..some of them are really cute cuz when you talk to them they respond..most of them got no response when you talk to them man!!went to Pyramid for lunch and redbox~ whee we had lunch at Nando's and we got a big room in redbox...enjoyed the 3 hours of singing but poor yonglong din really sing..and chuchu too!!! too bad we din manage to take picture cuz the very clever me forgot to bring =.=

actually...I duno what am I and why am I crappin here when I am suppose to finish up my I/O proposal...perhaps I'm just trying to hit my #300 post by end of this year..this is the #284 post after....2 years and 5 months since the first entry I guess with my pace of updating shudn't be a problem to hit #300 hahah...

currently in love with The Long Goodbye - Ronan Keating
"and if we walked away, wud it make more sense but it tears me up inside just to think we still cud try.."

Facebook Spree~

...I'm feeling happy~ for no apparent reason.

actually there is, but hmm..we shall come back to this later on =D

I've to admit, I've been very bad...been slacking since thursday, after I handed in my term paper. Let's see what have I done since then..
I've updated my blog
I've watched heroes epi 4 and 5
I've a gathering with old mates
I've watched {Just Follow Law}
I've been facebook-ing 24/7!!!!!

ZOMG~ I'm really taking my own sweet time..another two proposal is going to hit my face and I'm still chillax-ing (I duno who came up with this word, so dun bother about the citation)

I must finalize my leaflet design (I must stop facebooking)
I must start my I/O proposal (I must stop facebooking)
I must tidy up my messy notes (I must stop facebooking)
I must start revision already (I must stop facebooking)

*sigh* facebook is da bomb u see....

"Facebook is attractive because it keeps you in the know of what events are going on around campus. One bad thing about it is that its addictive and you end up on Facebook instead of doing other important things," said Erikka Jackson, a sophomore psychology major.

The thing about facebook is that they have millions of applications in it..I really cannot tahan people with ALOT app (when I say ALOT means really ALOT) in their profile that by the time I get to the bottom of their page, I'd probably hurt my finger already....damn semangat wei

Anyway, facebook is still fun..like I said my friendster is as good as dead now..not active anymore *sob sob*


p/s: my darling dearest cloverz seems to have blain damage because of their cell met aka sial mad's revision..God bless their paper on Tuesday *praying*

Hooked to Facebook

*please click on the picture to check out the sentence I circle in red*

How can you don't like facebook? with their very stylo milo way of asking people to use the older version when they are loading..."use the old crappy version" LOL

and yes! got hooked to FB recently, if you're not a user yet faster join the group..and lemme spam your profile with hatching eggs, growing gifts, cakes, ais cream and MANY MORE!! it's soooo much interactive than friendster..relatively when I'm active in FB, my friendster seem so dead now...=P

alright, time to bed...social psy presentation later and term paper due tomorrow!! *fainted*

I Hate Thursday!!

I seriously definitely utterly absolutely HATE thursday...to be more precise, I hate the time after my class and before I go home..it ain't short I'm telling you, it's approx 3 hours long!!! and gosh I've to wait every single thurs!!!!!!! It gets annoyed when you are sleepy and tired and wanna go home for a rest on the last day of the week (I've no class on friday)

Enough with complains, I'm just too bored over here..been reading journals for an hour or more already and started to feel impatient with it..so decided to disturb my bloggie awhile...I'm feeling hungry actually...but my damn paper-ish stomach doesn't allow me to eat whatever I wan at the moment or I will end up in toilet again (fyi..I had diarrhoe and light fever yest) I had BBQ chicken rice from the lemon grass stall just now and also end up visiting toilet...*sigh*

ok..time to go..God bless peNnY's term paper..and all the monashians in their finals =)

Kiss the Holidays Good Bye

Mid Sem is over before I even realize it was here...with only introduction of the term paper done and the accomplishment of one and a half series, I am back to class again =.=" foyer finally done! so much brighter n spacious now..whee~ and most the constructions are almost done too...less noise *yippee*

Okay..I really enjoyed too much of my mid sem and din do much work, now everything is piling up! *congratulation* social psychology presentation is next week!! no one ever remember about it, suppose to find 25 subjects for a research also forgot..I'm friggin scrude!!! blame on prison break n facebook!!

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Sometimes I really hate myself for being so rational until I will laugh at some lyrics that sounds ridiculous to me..ridiculous as in how?hmm...something like "I'll be loving you forever" or "I'll never love this way again" perhaps its because of those promises that I've broke in the past that made me stop believing in forever!! FOREVER..it's such a big word!!and when you're just outta love u may probably thought that you wont love that way again..until u found another one and fall in love again...love and promises are just soooo fragile!

It can also be that I haven met someone who can make me believe in forever again yet...that's why I feel some songs are ridiculous..LOL I guess the day I start to believe in all these songs again, is clear enuf to show that I'm in love.....again hah =D