any more Question?

For those who keep wonderin why i never wear skirt/ dress or whatsoever....plz read this.

personally prefer this line
"I will change when I think I should, when I feel like, when I want to. And, with the right reasons. Of course, I am the one who determines what those "right reasons" are supposed to be."

lost in thought

holidays is here, im suppose to blog more often den usual but i jz don't have the mood. I'v alot to think about, so much to think. I really dunno what's botherin me, i cant really tell what's is goin wrong, what is so not right.
I just feel like my life had been a mess ever since the year 2004. I let everythin outta control. I hate the feeling of me not being able to control what i am thinkin, what i am doin. I can no longer focus and concerntrate on every single thing i do, i am lost. My life, my studies, my love, my frens........i am such a failure in everythin i have, to everyone i know. Everytime i stop and turn back, i can't see any good point of myself.
Days in days out, life seems to be happy infront friends and family, but deep inside i hear a voice where no one else on earth will ever heard of it. Perhaps i am good in pretendin myself, all these years i'v learnt the skills on pretending, i can hardly show angry or sad faces in front of any of my friends. My laughter may not be genuine, my smile may be fake.

@!*&%^&#$*

havin such a complex feelin dat make me so darn heartache..wat can i do??NOTHIN..all i can do is jz sit n watch...watch the show dat i dun wish to watch ever....

for Teck Jung

tis pic is super sad.....i cant explain why but it jz simply de feelin of seperating...the sky is stil so dark..de rest of the world is stil sleepin yet you'v been awake n waitin to go to de airport with the new shirt we gave u...
WONG TECK JUNG...i dun realy noe him last sem...but tis sem oso duno y became more closer...he's smart i wud said...hv good time management...hardworkin..oways doin report or study in library...hehe...like to tel jokes..very cold one=) he's fav line is: 'makan makan...' hhahahaha...accordin to him- hungry man is an angry man...so if u see him black face he muz be hungry..jz buy him food wil be fine!!!he's a very nice guy...anythin u ask..he wil try to get it done for u (is it??!) time flies...u r leavin to aussie soon....wishin for all the best to u....dun come back become FAT JUNG i faint....hahaha

a lil' summary

had been busy for endless outing recently....redbox, skating, movie, lagoon, bukit tinggi.....n u noe after outing wil be busy transferin pictures here n there......so had been busy gettin pic from others n busy organisin it.....ok here's a lil' update on my outing and the pictures...

9th Nov
right after their bth paper which was their last paper...went straight to redbox for karaoke session for 8 hrs straight wif rachel, yenyen, venetia, kim and jia jia, TJ, henry, yi horng, and matthew. thou some of them left early and left me rachel n vene in de end of the day(how pathetic) but we stil hv fun...whole lotta fun singin n dancin n screamin our lungs out after de major exam....after dat we went BBQ plaza to hv our dinner...man im realy so broke weii....


Create Your Own


10th Nov
suppose to go lagoon today....but due to some TECHNICAL problem we changed our plan so replace it with skating today..hehe so me, rachel, yenyen, jiajia and TJ went skating...venetia oso tag along but wat eva we said and no matter how we persuade her, she jz refuse to join in...memang kia si betul...hahah..so we went skatin without her for 4 hrs plus....after dat went McD for some snackz and went for our movie...the prestige, its a quite a nice show...twist n turn n make u tink alot....after de show...................we went BBQ again!!!!!!!man im gonna realy faint if i were to hv BBQ again in near future....

13 Nov
LAGOON!!!!!!haven been there ever since the new surf beach was done....de last time we went was de O-bash time...n dat was like one week after de first sem start....now is one week after de 2nd sem end...yoohoo~~time flies=) ya we r gettin old...how sad....been to lagoon wif the cloverz, vince and horng.....well im gettin along quite well wif all my new frens i tink..hehe havin lotta fun wif slides and competition wif them...lazyin around on de tube on de wave pool...playin games on de surf beach....enjoy throwin ppl and being thrown into de pool.....playin tube-train that lead by horng...hahah..havin whole lotta fun..after dat we went mr.teppanyaki for dinner and went giant to shop for some food for our bukit tinggi trip....we were like some aunties busy comparin price there in de super market swt swt...=.= n we bought TJ a shirt as a gift as he's leavin back to his hometown n transferin to aussie nex year....gonna miss u TJ

14th Nov
5am...alarm clock rang...suppose to wake rachel up...let her slp 5 more min la..............(fon vibratin..rachel callin :P) holy shit.....its 5:17am.....woke up and went wash up and grab all my things...waited outside at 5:50am.........Henry reached my hse round 6:20am....we reached bukit tinggi around 8 sth but colmar haven open so we went to de club house n took some pic...after checked in..we started to mk breakie as everyone haven hv their breakfast...after dat we stayed in de suite and play games..watch tv...some watchin series on laptop(lousy...go there watch O.C) haha..the rest went to de japanese garden where me, rachel, henry and theng stayed back in de suite.....i oso duno y i never follow...felt regreted(sim tia-ing) since nth much to do so we went in the room n hv some nap....it was realy a nice afternoon nap^^
after dat..we went rabbit farm n play wif rabbits...hehe...they all are so cute=) after dat went for 2 games of bowlin....i wana say de bowling alley there damn lau yah! i cannot strike or perform normally.....whereas yen yen got 4 strikes!!!!!!how can dat possibly happened??!!?!after de bowlin we went back n prepare our steamboat dinner~~yummy yummy...we all surround de table n eat steamboat in the cold weather like a big happy family^^ its so warm~~ after eatin...cleanin n bathin...we went down n hv another round of photo takin session...muahaha we took alot crazy n 'creative' piczzie...heheh


Create Your Own


15th Nov
packed n came down from bukit tinggi...stop by McD for our lunch and as we stil hv time..we went 1U to catch a show- flushed away....it was such a hillarious animation..i love de slugs alot...they are good acapella singer wei....bwahahaha...no kiddin^^ after de show..we went back maluri to hv our bak kut teh for dinner as promised...thnx TJ for the treat..miss u lot here...


guys....thnx for the wonderfull trip and jokes^^ so lucky to hv know u all.....luv u lot <3

survery-about me

this is an inherited post from yenyen's blog....find it quite interestin so decided to make one. have fun =)

1. decribe urself?











2. ten years ago?












3. where do u see urself five years from now?














4. who inspires u the most?












5. what has uni done to u and ur friends?













6. what car do u WANA drive?













7.what car does ur parents want u to drive?















yes...de bicycle behind.......



8.what is the worst thing a fren could have done to u?


















9. and what was ur reaction?















10.what is ur defination of beautiful?




















11.what is the most embarassing moment of ur life?

















12.what is the sport dat u definately need improvement at?















13. how do u and ur girlfriends spend ur time durin holidays?















14.what do u feel like eatin now?















15.your favourite hobby?















16.What is the most private and personal thing you have spied upon?




















17.When someone mentioned that you resemble somebody... who do you think comes into your mind?













im her daughter la..who else u expect??


18.How neat is your room?



























19.What do you do when you have nothing to do?













20.What is your all-time favorite food?
















21.The food you hate the most?















22.Who are the three people in your life you can absolutely count on?















23.And finally... what do you feel like doing after completing this survey?













modified some question as i dun hv suitable picz...hehehe.....

Living to Love you-Sarah Connor

All we had was just one summer
two lovers strolin in the park
But like they say the world keeps turning
as the leaves will fallin we should fall apart

Now I'm waiting for the winter
To build my castle out of eyes
And deep inside is massive building
There's a cristal lake of all the tears I've cried

Baby for all my love don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
so baby don't think twice
if you feel what I feel
trust your heart and do what I do,
cause I'm living to love you
hmmmm I'm living to love you

When you're gone it's not forever
Cause your remainin in my heart
So tell me why I feel this aching
Every time I think of you when we're apart

Baby for all my love don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
so baby dont think twice
if you feel what I feel
trust your heart and do what I do,
I'm living to love you ohhh yes

I admit that from time to time
I'm feelin insecure and think I'm gonna lose my mind
don't let it show no
oh no no no no no hmm
I don't think I never understand
that our love is should never have a happy end
So I'm really gonna try my best to let you know
to let you know

Baby for all my love don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
so baby don't think twice
if you feel what I feel
trust your heart and do what I do
When I final take care
I know the angels they will see my smile
And if they wanna know the reason
I will tell them why

Baby for all my live
hoooo yes I`m living to love you

p/s: strongly recommended..go download n listen if u cant find it feel free to message me i'l send it to u :)

post exam

'Attention to all candidates, u muz stop writting now..........' i've been waitin for him to say tis phrase for such a long time, after approx 3 weeks++ of campin n studyin in uni finally it had came to an end!!!!!!!!the previous 3 weeks is freakingly long i would said. all our life is nothing besides study study study study and STUDY!!!!!!! even saturday n sunday oso we were in uni..we nearly forgotted which day is which day....cant realy differenciate weekdays n weekends, cz everyday to us is the same**sigh**
even thou its under exam's stress..we stil manage to hv fun outta it...due to no more lectures so we oso never bother to dress up nicely..attire durin study weeks: (shorts+comfy shirt+sandals)+ jacket and the most important thing that we muz hv is mp3!!!!we need music to destress wei...haha currently recommendation: Sarah Connor- Living to Love You. so the fun i was sayin durin the study weeks was that we normally stayed in uni til after dinner...so besides study revise n revise study..we wil make some silly jokes n make each other laff...drawin and writting msg to cheers each other...so far the latest i stayed til in uni was 10pm...n it was a snday nite!!!now i noe how is the uni lookz like at nite...the oni thing that i haven see is sunway lagoon's nite scene!!!!!!!i wanted to go for a peep last sunday but they were terrifyin me wif the 5th floor stairs!!! ish.....
so now that the exam was over..i had went out for a dinner and movie wif my IT mates, they all finished today as well but different session so i gotta wait for them til round 5 to go pyramid to celebrate our independence day..so in between 1-5 i was like...now wat?!!!where m i suppose to go n wat m i suppose to do??those who stay condo went back grab their slp...those who haven finish exam stil studyin....den me leh??T_T so i went up lab to surf net...was tryin to find music code bt cant find de song im lookin for....so end up nth n went to library to join my gals...they stil hv one more paper on thurs..gambate gals its almost there...found some magazines to read in the library...chit chattin a lil n its 5 alrd....
we went pyramid round 530 near 6, after decided to watch the covenant, we went manhattan fish market to hv our dinner...me n sook yan share one fish n chipz as we both cant realy finish one meal by ourselves..gosh Darren muz be freakingly hungry cz the way he eat make u feel like he had been starving for 10 days..hahah..catch our movie after the dinner, the covenant. its not a bad show jz dat the story was a lil bit old fashion...wat 'i will u my power....' wah...dis is like a kid's story wei...but then the effect is worth watchin la...anyway when u jz finish a major exam i tink even WTC is nice :P (its debatable..)
nice chillin out..even thou its short but i appreciate all the jokes u guys made=D
enjoy the holidays dudes~

习惯

家里的电动铁门坏了，进出都得下车推开或关上，好不麻烦。记得以前家里也一样没有电动门，进出一样得下车开关，但那时从不觉得麻烦或不方便。人原本就不能被宠，一旦习惯了方便，忽然之间失去了那种方便就会浑身不自在。
感情其实也是一种习惯，习惯了有人让你依靠，习惯了有一双手牵着你走，习惯临睡前收到晚安的简讯或电话，习惯有人在你考试时叫你起床，习惯了有人哄，习惯了想念.......如果有一天，这种习惯也和电动门一样坏了，不见了，世界就要末日了吗？难道电动门坏了，你就不要出门了吗？
门坏了，就想办法去适应没有电动门的日子。虽然刚开始会不习惯，但慢慢还是会适应的，而且我们并不是过新的生活，只是重新适应以前没有电动门的日子罢了。他走了，你也只不过是回到认识他以前的生活，如果你认为没有他，日子根本活不下去的话，那你以前是怎么活过来的？
没有了他的肩膀，还有朋友让你靠；没有了那双牵着你走的手，请学会认路。