傻瓜 {曾沛慈}

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

曾沛慈 ma new idol~!!! I love this song and I think she sang better than Landy!

A week in hell

The past one week was hectic and semester hasn't been this tough for me....
oh well, we should have or rather we must get use to this shit by now!
no complains please!

anyhow...it's thurs alrd! another tough week's coming to an end...
presentation later, good luck peNnY and the group!
and I'll be off to Pangkor on friday morning! whee~


but most probably bringing some work along to do...
=.= damn potong stim I know
but whatudo? so much work undone...
peNnY needs a time management class..
and a STRONG determination!!

Psychology and I

talking about my life at this very moment.....
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ob room and psy lab is where u can find us...
depression is written all over our faces..
journals are boring..
reviews are such a pain...
researches are time consuming..
discussions and meetings are never ending..
group members are confusing...

anyway no worries...
althou life is hard at the moment,
but I can still get my happiness thru
eating and sleeping HAAHA
maybe not so much on sleeping..
cz recently I only sleep like 4 hours averagely..
some more wake up late for classes T.T

记住我爱你

「亲爱的宝贝，如果你还活着，一定要记住我爱你」

《孩子快抓紧妈妈的手》
孩子快
抓紧妈妈的手
去天堂的路
太黑了
妈妈怕你
碰了头
快
抓紧妈妈的手
让妈妈陪你走
妈妈
怕
天堂的路
太黑
我看不见你的手
自从
倒塌的墙
把阳光夺走
我再也看不见
你柔情的眸
孩子
你走吧
前面的路
再也没有忧愁
没有读不完的课本
和爸爸的拳头
你要记住
我和爸爸的摸样
来生还要一起走
妈妈
别担忧
天堂的路有些挤
有很多同学朋友
我们说
不哭
哪一个人的妈妈都是我们的妈妈
哪一个孩子都是妈妈的孩子
没有我的日子
你把爱给活的孩子吧
妈妈
你别哭
泪光照亮不了
我们的路
让我们自己
慢慢的走
妈妈
我会记住你和爸爸的模样
记住我们的约定
来生我们一起走

It'd been 8 days since the Szechwan's earthquake happened...n seems like everyone is bloggin about it lately, I wasn't sure what to blog about on this issue because the news is too hard for me digest...news on this are everywhere, people talking bout it and I was actually at the stage of denial for the past 8 days. I wish it could be just a rumor, or just a belated april fool joke but when I saw this news above, I cried. who wouldn't? If u do not understand mandarin, the news is about a mother who protected her baby during the earthquake with her own body, and she put a hand phone together with her baby with a message typed on it "Dear baby, if you're still alive, please remember that I love you" and the poem is just too touching!

"May God bless all the souls that had been sacrificed in this disaster and guide those who are lost..."

The Double 2's

Happy Birthday to me!! another year older which means another year wider wiser (I hope) and before anything else, I would like to thank all of you who had dropped me a note, message, calls, that came in in many ways let it be hp, frenster, facebook or emails..I may not reply u personally but I appreciate the wishes ;)

I had a rather different celebration last nite..was out dinner and movie with Carol..and Rachel called from Melb n all of them sang me a birthday song! with the loud speaker....hahah thank God the env was not too quiet so it doesnt appear to be that loud or not I guess Carol will be quite malu hahah..man I miss the 2 ladies over at Melb!! thanx for the lil surprise darlings, althou I still dun get choc fondue at the end but I was thankful that u girls manage to come up with something from down under =) owh and Narnia was awesome! thanx Carol for the dinner, cheese cake, card and movie!!

Upon reaching my house, I received calls from Ke Xiou!! and she sang me birthday song too! whee~ u couldn't imagine how touched I was, getting calls from overseas that sing me birthday song! thanx for the song darling girl, and it's extra meaningful cz u called from library HAHAH...imagining kx singing in the library *hmm* must be hard for u eh?

and just this morning, I received a teddy bear bouquet from Syed, Flo and Adrian =D that was really shocking ok?! I thought who was that standing outside my house holding a bouquet haha

Thanx for all the wishes and greetings that came in =) birthday is not about the pressies and celebration...it's about being remembered that count ;) I really smile from ear to ear when I received a very simple 'happy birthday!' from each and everyone of u =)

when age is still deniable..

A big TANKIU to Vene, Celeste, Alvin, Bob and Matthew for a lovely surprise =) and ofcz to Henry as well even thou you're not here together with us but I know you're in this too!

Make a wish =)

Feeding Choc! Bob dun open ur mouth like dat..ur turn's next!

Arr......

and ur turn too!

we then headed to have some hot pot for dinner....

Thank u so much people!!

Thanx for planning this during ur busiest period, darling dearest!
love ya <3

and thanx for spending ur precious time and drive all the way here..I appreciate all the efforts and thought =D

Something's not right somewhere

I'm feeling a lil bit weird lately...I'm neither sad nor happy,it's not neutral as well..emotional? maybe..it could be due to the stress but then again I don't wana go all out and whine over the workload cz I'm not the only one who are stressing here...it could be all the negative news that I've been receiving these days, but then none of it had direct affection on me, I'm just feeling pity and heartache for them....especially when I watch the news on the Szechwan's earthquake..I cried over the news because it was really a catastrophe......

Sometimes I hate the fact that I actually realized and aware of the the tiniest emotions in between, if I can just ignore those little voices, maybe I would be happier or at least as happy as people perceived...now I know why they said ignorance is bliss........

Anyhow, life isn't really that sad after all...at least I had some good time yesterday ;)
I went to Neway with Stella early in the morning, I need a place to de-stress myself, the best way other than binge eating will be karaokae! we went and sang our lungs out and after that we went for a lil shopping, get some birthday pressies and have a lil chat at juice work. Marie digby will be having a showcase there at one utama on that night itself and I thought I wouldn't have chance to watch her that night because I've dated some friends at night. To my surprise, she came out to the stage for rehearsal, and thank God I was still in the mall!! I saw her performing live up close and personal I was standing at the first row okayy? damn excited...and she's so gorgeous and talented I am telling u!! and no I'm not lying...if you think she's pretty on youtube, she looks better in person! *melted*

*sigh* if I know the gathering at night will be canceled, I would have stay there until the showcase starts! but anyway, at least I saw her during rehearsal =) crap, I just realized I always only get to watch the singer during rehearsal =S The last time was Colbie and now Marie Digby...

别再哭了 - 罗亿诗

伤心情歌过期变了你对眼还是红红的
生命中有些过客现在不过多了一个
结束了何必再拉扯有心事总该遗忘的
你听着听着又哭了
我明白的谁都难免不舍

别再哭了多不值得
笑一笑把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩该他负责
他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌不属你的
幸福不一定非爱谁不可
难傲的会经过的

别再哭了多不值得
笑一笑把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩该他负责
他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌不属你的
幸福不一定非爱谁不可
爱错了又能如何

别再哭了不值得
笑着把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩他负责
他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌不属你的
幸福不一定非爱谁不可
难傲的会经过的

I think the lyric is superb =) definitely meaningful especially 别再哭了多不值得, 失去也是另一种获得

Good Day? Bad Day?

I just cant conclude, but it was definitely a long~ Friday...

It started off bad I would say..because I was late for the time to gather at foyer and have to borrow the season parking card from Su Woan and rush to park and run back to the foyer..I felt pretty embarrassed because I am normally a punctual person and now I am late!!

Oh well..the embarrassment were all thrown outta the window when we reached Summer Academy =) because the kids there were all soooo cute and they brighten up my day! we spent approx 2 hours there talking to the kids, interview the director, teacher while the other group were doing some experiments with the kids..we took some video and pictures..I will upload it once I have a copy of it =) and I swear I really will!!after that we went back to uni and me and my 'smart ass' accidentally sat on my shades when I wana drive out my car from season parking to the sunway carpark!!! obviously the shades was broken la T.T I damn sad ok? it was only few months old!! it's still an infant *sob sob* and after lunch we were stuck in the lab for discussion, research and presentations......until 6pm! goodness I was in uni until that late when I have no class =.= did that give u an idea how heavy our workload are? We all got damn stressed out by the end of the day..here's the proof:
Gloria: What is the f ar? [referring to the statistic symbol]
Ee Lin: *annoyed* f is f laaaaaa after EEEE
we all ROFL..and ofcz ee lin was not really annoyed la, she just feel too stress after one whole day..
Someone (I cant remember who): why are u so high today?
Gloria: because I wear high heels today


Later that evening, I met up with Mel, Rach, Emily and Jhen at pyramid for dinner..Mel just came back from Seattle and I have not meet any of them for at least 2 years...so then we had our dinner at Sakae Sushi..and again, pictures will be up once I have it which I am not too sure when..we were there talking and eating for about 2.5 hrs updating about each other..it was nice catching up with old mates..too bad Cindy couldn't make it this time...

While I was leaving pyramid, Gloria text me and asked me if I wana go jalan and I agreed since I was not back yet, u see she was still so high until that night, and Yie Chu told her not to wear high heels anymore..we ended up in A&W together with Yie Chu..have a lil chat over any random stuff..owh in case u haven know this, A&W also open 24 hours now...I reached home at approx 1:15am thank god I'm a few minutes earlier than my dad! LOL

Happy perceived holiday to my mates! lets work like a cow this holiday.....=.=

How cloverz communicate {part 1}

there's this one day I talked to Sam....and I swear I miss those days when I used to shoot her straight to her face! heehehe...I just miss her sarcasm and meanness and those days where we used to sit in comp lab hogging the computer to watch youtube, read blogs and sent hokkien msg to each other even thou we were sitting side by side and laughed our ass off over the silliest conversation.....

SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
actually u know wat....
peNnY blog updated! says:
wat?
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
everytime u all insult me.. which is pretty much ALL the time..
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
i dont feel insulted hurt or whatever
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
amazing!
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
i mean... oh man
peNnY blog updated! says:
hahha...i guess is bcz we all can take jokes la
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
all four of us shoot each other wif criticism n stuff...
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
but we still laugh our arse off at the end of the day
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
i love it
peNnY blog updated! says:
hahaha
peNnY blog updated! says:
yea la
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
i love it when we tembak eacah other
peNnY blog updated! says:
yea..i love it most
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
eeishi dont like to tembak someone and she end up crying
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
coz of the girl wif the bad mouth keep criticizing me..
peNnY blog updated! says:
nono..she end up dyin how?
peNnY blog updated! says:
hhahahahahha
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
LOL
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
OI CHOI
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
i dun wan masuk jail
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
ahahhahaa
peNnY blog updated! says:
tats why dun simply tembak ppl
peNnY blog updated! says:
we all bullet proof
peNnY blog updated! says:
can tembak all u wan
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
man u know wat... my cousin la in melaka... she ady so thin like bamboo.. she summore wana go diet n bcome super thin
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
so i was jokingly saying.. eh u thin enuf de la... like bamboo de.. later i cant c u how?
peNnY blog updated! says:
eh hallo u dementia ka
peNnY blog updated! says:
suddenly change topic
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
den she merajuk u noe!! didnt reply after that
peNnY blog updated! says:
owh..its related
peNnY blog updated! says:
hahaha
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
bzzz
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
U DEMENTIA LAH!!
SamanthA - has nothing better to do than to facebook... teehee says:
u c!

love u loadz tai siu che~ even thou ur getting gempal day after day......opps did I just shoot you? ;p

Much too much

Without oxygen u die...too much of oxygen you get poisoned....
too little attention you feel neglected, too much of attention you feel suffocated..
too little food you're lack of nutrition, too much of food you'll have obesity..
without pressure you don't improve, too much of pressures you feel suicidal...
too little confidence is bad, too much of confidence is equally bad...

"too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing."

"How do you know when how much is too much? too much too soon. too much information. too much fun. too much love. too much to ask...and when is it all just too much to bear?"
- Meredith

The longest journey ever

Man I really never know walking to the open parking can be this long....

I've my replacement class for personality psy today yesterday and we watched a movie called 'The Life of David Gale' in the replacement class and I have to say that it is a GREAT movie!! go get a glimpse at it if you have a chance..it is about this man named David Gale (like DUHH) who had been charged for raping his student and murdered his best friend few years later and was sentence to death. He agreed to tell his story to Bitsey Bloom, a journalist with a substantial fee and later Bloom found out that Gale had been set up for this whole charges.......
find out the truth on your own la..if I tell you the answer then no syok d

okay..so after the movie I rushed outta the class because it looks like it was going to rain! true enough, it was drizzling when I walked outta the foyer and damn smart la myself..I thought it was only drizzle and so i didn't bother to stay back and wait for it to stop..and the drizzle turn out to be a heavy down pour within sec!! by the time I reached the traffic light I was totally drenched!! and the rain made my sandals damn slippery and when I was running to cross the road, one of my sandals was left in the middle of the road =_=b I can hear you laughing ok!!? I wana wear it properly to continue walking but there were cars coming!!! and so I walked to the side and waited for the road to clear IN THE RAIN and went back to wear it after that........*sigh* sia sui betul ok? the opposite cars' drivers must be laughing their asses off!!! *peNnY is praying that no one she knows saw that scene* ahem...reading it and seeing it with your own eyes is different story okay?

My Pride =D

before anything else, just look at this.....

I feel proud can? althou it's just a bronze but it's my very first medal in sports okayy??? wei, please look at my size, that explain it all la....

anyway..I'm suppose to finish up my report but damn I'm here bloggin on nothing again..life is pretty hectic and dull lately because there are alot alot research to do..one more training proposal to do and 3 biopsychology's review haunting me!! good thing is...next week will be our mid sem break!

goin to a field trip on friday to a kindergarten somewhere in ss18...gonna have meeting on research project after that and have a gathering with Mel, Cindy, Rachel and Emily..Mel just got back from Seattle!! I can't wait to meet all of them after so long!! gonna be busy busy busy!!

and I sooooo wana watch Prince Caspian!! cant wait to attack the cinema next friday already!! will be meeting up Carol by then...hmm maybe we can catch a movie together?!! haha..hopefully we can lar....

okay..end of this show-off-and-pointless-post....gonna finish up a lil bit more on the report and sleep! I need more sleep..I'd been dozing off while driving back home recently.....I certainly do not wana die on the road *touch wood* it'll be ugly can?!

TicTacToo on MSN

This is what we did when msn games pms-ing on us and the internet connection being bitchy...

and this is her respond when I told her I bought a jeans skirt...

Of the death of his father

It's always not nice to hear about a death of somebody...It always brought me down a lil when I came across all these news...even thou I may not be close to the death but I feel for his/her family....nothing can be compared to the lost of the love ones!

Got the news that one of my form 6 close buddy's father had passed away yesterday..I was shocked..really..no words can come out from my mouth for few sec...I just din noe wat to say and how to respond. Later I text him and sent my condolence and told him that I will drop by the next day..I feel sad for him and the family and I wish he'll be alrite soon...

and because I involve too much of my personal emotions into some unfortunate incidents around me..I thought I cant be a counselor...this is why I never join the peer counseling group in my college and never will I think of being a counselor...because if I did...I guess I'll be the one who suicide first before anyone else...I just cant handle bad events.....I need alotta time to get over something bad/horrible myself, how d'ya expect me to help others if I cant handle mine?

Be strong Joshua!
may ur dad rest in peace

It's fun learning with them..

There are 2 things that made me realized that dropping outta Monash after a year spent is not totally a waste.....first I've met so many great souls there within that one year and we became really close friends till now, second..join Sunway Psychology course of the year 2007 Mac lead me to this bunch of great mates!

music: Footprints in the sand- Leona Lewis

Things I like about FB

There are reasons why FB is much better than Friendster...

first thing of all....the messaging system that allow us to send out messages to many people at the same time and allow all to read the reply at the same time as well....

it's easier for a few people to keep each other update...as u can see...79 messages posted and still counting =) by the end of the year...I think it will be more than 200

News Feed!! hhe...it satisfied my kepo-ness keeps me update about my friends so I wont be autistic =P

Video!! u can share ur videos here without going thru youtube!! best part is that u can decide who can view the video =D

tag a photo....I have the habit of pointing my cursor to any picture I view now to check for the name....even when I'm not viewing on facebook =.=

comment on photo...and most of the time it turn out to be a forum.....Friendster may have this function as well but I dun get notifications about the comments.....so FB is still better!

Friend wheel.....I like this..it makes u feel as if u have alotta friends wtf! [the YL and Suet's symptoms..they are bad influence tsk tsk]

and lastly...I think they have tighter privacy setting than frenster, which is important..u are the one who decide who can view what kinda information on ur account..

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I'm having super good mood this week! because it was a short study week ;) monday's morning class was canceled and I only reached uni at 3pm..hehe Tues went for 3 hours class and went Sun Med to baby sit kids at the outpatient floor and wed only one class....hided in observation room for one2one assignment the whole afternoon after class and went for the bowling competition for the sports carnival =) made some new frens and had a nice dinner with chu...hehe thanx for coming girls!

gonna have long weekend this week!!but I'm gonna start doin my research =( hopefully everything will go smoothly

ok la..I wana sleep d..althou I only had 2 hours lectures today but I spent my entire afternoon sewing and my evening bowling...very tiring can? *yawn*

happy labour day!