One Litre of Tears..

The title is seriously a BIG BIG LIE!!!! I've five more episodes to go but I tink i cried more den 2 litre of tears already!!=.= everynight watchin and cryin until eyes swollen *sniff sniff* as the episode goes by I really dare not imagine how my eyes will turn out to be!!

Life is beautiful
if I can still open my eyes in the morning
if I can still stand on my own feet
and if I can still walk without relying

Life is wonderful
if I can help out in the family
if I am cheerful enough to not make my friends worry
and if I can be your somebody

If only life is like a diamond
that symbolize eternity
I wont have to worry
cause I know the time will be there waitin for me

But too bad,
there's not much time left for me
nor I can turn back the time to live it once again
at this very moment, I just wana feel ALIVE.

Penny's mood

It's 2:34am on the 26th Feb, I was suppose to join the gang a few hours later back in the campus to start my second year....but too bad I din made it thru.

The feelin is so complicated, it's like I've been fallin outta love. I wont be able to see the one whole usual gang that I've been hangin around with thru out these few months that often, and ofcz they all will be very busy with their second year's heavy workload. And look where am I? I'm stil not sure on what am I goin to do and where am I suppose to go....the feelin is indeed not very nice, seein everyone busy to arrange their time table, plannin for new activities etc. but anyhow I can feel the excitement in them, friends wish the club will be approved soon and run actively, I will be the external member of MPAC =p

Have a superb year ahead and have fun in uni =)



"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." - De 31:6

Solitude in Multitude

Quoted the title from kexiou =p cz i cant find another better title to put..

Chinese New Year is here, everyone's givin themselves all the reason on earth to eat, sleep and enjoy. Everyone is puttin on their new clothes, new shoes, sayin good words, puttin on a happily smilling face everywhere they went. It shud be a happy festival yet everytime come to all this big festival, the feelin of emptyness inside me will be gettin stronger.....

Had been in kinda "packed" environment for the past few days, people's everywhere in the house, until you cant really find a place to sit or stand!!seriously, I dun like dat feelin at all where de whole house were full with people dat u duno at all!!!Fortunately, I dun have to do all this visiting after de 2nd day of CNY, and I spent my whole day at home on the 3rd day of CNY alone! yes, all by myself on de 3rd day =D you may think that "wah, so pathetic CNY stayed home alone!" but to tell you the truth I love it! I never like goin outside alone, when u leave me in public alone, I will start to feel paranoid and panic..but I love stayin in alone. I can just spent my whole day listenin to my music in my playlist, surfin on net without any destination, spring cleanin my drawer, spent time lookin back all those old photos, lyin on bed thinkin back all those past and think of my future........I have so many things to do when Im alone at home. Sometimes its a must to spare some times for yourself =)

This CNY I never plan to pay any friends a visit, maybe is because of lazy-ness or maybe I just wana give all the time to myself. Okay, I better stop here, I duno wat's this post all about just simply wana type something here...anyway, I had a great time with my coussies on the first 2 days. Went for a movie and karaokae session and the most important thing is...all FOC!!!cz uncles and aunties sponsor whee~



"Loliness is the poverty of self; solitude is the richness of self" - May Sarton

Melodies of the Heart

I think most would agree if i say that music is our best mate; we played music when we are sad, happy, bored, when we are alone by ourself or when we are celebrating special events with our beloved. Any kinda mood and place we will need music, and that's why there's a line goes like: "NO MUSIC NO LIFE!" which is so true=)

I love to sing with my friends in karaokae, I also love to plug on ear phone to enjoy the songs to myself, I love singin along with the songs playin so loud in my car when Im driving alone, I enjoy the moment i spend with songs and a cup of coffee make it best, I cries over songs that touched my feeling, I smiles so wide when the song is so sweet, I feel so emo when the songs reminds me of my saddening past.....

Besides the beautiful rhythms in the songs, lyrics is another important element in a song. Used to admire beautiful lyrics recently...below are some songs that touched my heart:

The Rose
originally by Bitte Midler but i just prefer Westlife's version more. Shane's vocal can brings you up to the heaven. It gives me a moment of peacefulness in mind..
"It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance.."
Indeed, I dare not dream because I'm afraid after all it's just a dream!

Speechless
by The Veronicas. I love to listen this song with my ear phone and turn the volumn as loud as possible to drown myself in the atmosphere of emo-ness =p well sometimes you just need the time for yourself and I would like to tell you that emo is not a negative stuff on my point of view. Anyway I love their vocal, I feel like cryin when she start singin
"Thought I knew how it feels, But with you it's like the first day of my life"

Eternal Flame
What else can I say about this song? It just really left me speechless. heartachin so badly everytime this song was played. I tried so hard to avoid listenin this song but once in a while I will sing it out unconsiously. I have so much so much memories within this song. If only you are readin this, I just wana say sorry for being a disaster of your life..thnx for everythin you did for me, it's always be remembered.
"You belong with me, do you feel the same? or am I only dreamin?"

This I promise you
by N'Sync. This is a classic, and I will be super expressive when Im singing this song =P Guys, sing this song to the one u love, sure melted ur gal's heart..hmm that's provided if u can sing la..haha
"And I will take you in my arms, and hold you right where you belong.."

Say That You love me
by Jay-R and Kyla. I just LOVE this duet so much!! It had been in my folder for such a long time and stil I dun bear to delete it..and for your information I love duet's song. Especially, guy-girl's duet =P
"then my day begin with simple thoughts of you, hoping my tomorrow would be me and you..."
Actually this whole song's lyric really do impress me, go check it out yourself

Wounded
by Good Charlotte. I dun like this song when I listen to it for the first time. It's not those sentimental kinda song, hmm I dun think many people will like it; at least I know ke xiou dun like it at all..muahaha. Anyway, it's a good song I think. Started to love this song when I was in the maze of life.
"So help me heal these wounds, they've been open for way too long.."

可乐戒指
by Fish Leong. aww..what a sweet song, I smile everytime when I heard this song and also start imagining the love that belongs to me in the future =) okok, cant I just have dream for once?hehe
"我不要你解释 我不要你发誓, 我只要你记得此刻 你眼里我的样子"

好眼泪坏眼泪
by Vivan Hsu. Get to know this song was actually watched Hsu Wei Lun sang it on TV and the lyric does made me remember it. There's always tears in a relationship, both tears of joys and sorrows. Relationship's always complicated.
"好眼泪坏眼泪 我都曾为你流，感动和悲伤都是理由..."

well I guess that's all for now,I'm gettin lazy. Actually there're alot more I wana include here, but I really runnin outta words to describe those songs..in short I just love songs..

Happy Valentine's day

Dear Friends Y..

Do something extra special this valentine's, never mind if it's exaggerated, never mind if it used up ur hard earned cash. Your loved one deserves that extra loving and this is a good time to show it to them =)

May u have a memorable valentine's this year. To those who dun have anyone special like me..better luck next year =D



"You call it madness, but I call it LOVE." - Don Byas

Regrets

Over the years, when we look back from where we are at that very moment, we do regrets over something in the past. I have lotta things that I regrets I didn't do or I wish I will have a second chance to do it again, better; things like: why I didn't persist in learnin piano when I was young?, why will I choose to go form 6 instead of A-levels? why didn't I work harder in my course??and alot more....

The feeling of regret is so terrible. It's something over that you can't make any changes to it, that makes you feel helpless. but, come to think of it, it's your past that makes you who you are now. Those peoples that you met, those peoples who you called them friends might not appear in your life if you were to make another choice instead of the one u made. Those happy and sweet memories that you all have experienced will never ever happen if you never get to know them. You never know what's goin to happen in the next second, and you cant make any changes to what's over; you can only control the present, follow your heart and dont let yourself regrets in the future. 把握当下!


"Make it a rule of life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appaling waste of energy; you can't build on it; it's only for wallowing in." -Katherine Mansfield

Love to be loved by You

I can’t believe I’m standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can’t you see…

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you

You're looking kind of scared right now
You're waiting for the wedding vows
But I don’t know if my tongue’s able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeah...yeah...

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we’ll give up because of heavy weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

Yes I love to be loved by you



Memories flashing back when this song was played. Drown myself in the emo mood for so long~ I try to put the song at the side bar, but i cant find..so u guys just go download yourself or ask from me =)

单身潜逃

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌
我也和你一样
曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难
就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道
就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

suppose to be focus on work, but suddenly heard this song from radio. I just love the lyric =) maybe its a sign of growin old, last time i never pay much attention to lyric in a song, but nowadays i just simply admire those songs with beautiful lyrics that touch my soul and speaks my mind...

another Maze in Life

life had been in a mess recently, Im utterly lost..

how shall I put it into words? hmm..things doest turn out the way I want them to be, and I really duno what shall I do next and where will be goin until I really do it. Thou I've some alternate choice in mind now bt stil I cant really figure out what exactly I am goin to do.

Friends had been givin advices, yet something in life u can lean on nobody but you yourself. I sincerely appreciate all the concerns but I really feel that at the moment just leave me alone with this, sometimes I do feel bad for tellin u guys that Im ok where the fact is Im no where near it. I seriously dun like the idea of makin any of u worry about me or makin u all feel bad when u know that u cant actually help. Anyway, I shall figure this out on my own. All u can do is just pray for me that I will be back on the right track soon =)

"I will turn all my mountains into roads, and my highways will be raised up." ( Isa 49:11)

Bad-BAd-BAD!!

What's so bad? if u know i'm goin to talk about movie u'll know what can be that bad. Its the Epic Movie. Unlike its name, it isnt even a movie; it's just simply a rojak of all the recent Hollywood blockbusters and tryin to make money outta it. U can find every significant character from The Chronicles of Narnia, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, The DaVinci Code, X-Men, Nacho Libre, Snake on a plane, Harry potter, Superman Returns to Pirates of the Caribbean in the show and also the MTV's programmes like Cribs and Punk'd...

The actors (are they even one?) played the character badly!! who ever de actor name is that play as Peter. He just simply destroyed my leng zai Peter in Narnia!!and ofcz the stupid disgustin version of Hermione!!!The show is really disgusting at some part: geyser pimples, atomic vomit, slurpee poop and etc. The worst will be the kissin part of Mr. Tumnus and the beaver!!!! its really a BIG BIG yiak~!!!!

If u have this will of watchin such movie, my advice is DON'T!!!Go download, watch it and delete it if u really insist of watchin it, else dont even bother watchin and im tellin u this seriously. Spend your $10 on other more worthy movies. Hmm, i heard that The Holiday is nice =) i shall make that my next movie, who's on with me?hehe..

天使折翼

艺人许玮伦前日深夜11点多在国道上发生严重，情况一直没有改善，今日下午5点09分，心跳停止，经过医生2个小时抢救後，於晚间7点37分宣告不治。