Random stuff

Holiday gets boring without plans and outing...argh!! My fellow psycho mates..when will u all be back? lets go lagoon together!!

oh well, there are some events on and off thou, not completely dull...

last wed went Neway with a few highschool mates, and then went shopping in Ikano and mutiara damansara..bought a top and made myself owe ysim RM50...aiks, where got people like me? no money still wana spend..and then on friday went shopping in one u with mummy =) whee..bought another top and a new jeans!! thnx mama ;)

On sunday, went pyramid with Vene. We had our lunch in Jack's place, and we had a long chat there.. went shoppin after the lunch and had BR before we leave..whee~ I miss BR!! On tuesday evening, finally received Jeannie's mail saying that no one need to resit any paper for the finals which means all of us PASS!! WooHoo~~~!!! I got the mail while webcam-ing with ke xiou, she can tell u how excited am I when I got that mail =P later that nite when ss2 for dinner with Hoi Hoi, Tiffany, Karena and Henry as Hoi is goin back to Aus on fri..so we had our dinner and a lil gathering session at kepong gasoline with stella and bee hoi joined us at the table. On friday nite went williams to meet up with my dahling cloverz, jia jia, horng and henry. went home at about 230am that nite, mum almost kill me for that =p

Duno if I'm thinking too much, I feel so weird. The silence between us in msn is so.....strange! or maybe the reports and all the activities juz making u too tired to talk....thought about we will be like stranger make me feel so uncomfortable =( and recently, the scene of sending u all off to Aussie keep playin in my mind!! argh~ silly penny!!

now im feeling sad...cis, penny oh penny..stop being so emotional!

anyway, have a great sunday ahead dudes =)

A tribute to my friends

It'd been almost 4 years since we graduate from high school and separate into different path with all our lovely friends. some may still meet up frequently, some have not meet up since then. I met alot of new people new friends within this 4 years, from the gang that I met in national service, up to those I met in the current college..different age range and different type of personality, yet you all bring alotta laughter to my life.

the high school gang- we were all in the different path and heading to a different direction and yet I'm glad that we still have lots and lotsa story to share each and everytime we meet. I seriously love you gals alot! I really look forward to each and every gathering we arrange =) cz I like to talk and also like to 8 about u gals' life =p

the NS gang- those days in the camp, especially the first few days in the camp is the longest 'few days' in my life. and Thank God I met u gals! remembering all the 'adventuring' ponteng time make me laugh. When the 3 months was finally over, and when I got back home sleeping on my own bed..I suddenly feel so weird, cuz I don't hear all the noises that u gals made everynite when I am on my bed, I can't see Cindy do sit up in front of my bed anymore, I can't see Mel talking on the phone with her pillow covering her head..haha..silly me =) gals no matter where u are and what u are doin, I wish u all the best!

the monash gang- nex year, most of you will be going abroad. It's a great chance that none should give up thou I will for sure miss all of you ALOT! and maybe somehow the relationship will faded like I said earlier, but I treat it in a very positive way. As I always said, nothing last forever and the only that I can keep is the memory we shared. I had ALOT ALOT ALOT of GREAT moments with you all: laughter, surprise and encouragement! I really regret that I wasted a year complete nothing in monash yet u all are treasure I found in monash =) and I'm glad that I was there..love you all and may God bless you all.

the sunway gang- well, first of all give all of us a HOORAY~ none of us flunk any paper! We still have another 2 years to spend together and hope we all will have more fun time laughin and studyin together =D

Lemme dedicate this song to all of you:
Graduation - Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And there was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
Come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

the night seem so long~

Finally, the thing that I've been worrying since the day I finish my last paper had settled! NO RESIT needed!! Had been thinking about it until I can't really sleep..until i received Jeanie's mail with a BIG congrats!! =) started to message few people who are close to me...telling them the good news and everyone replied except him....but he called during my farewell dinner with Hoi and I think there's some miscommunication occur in the middle so he hung up the fon....

laid on my bed, couldn't sleep....it's 4:38am on the 25th July 2007......it'd been almost a week that I can hardly close my eyes and sleep in peace...most of the time, reading all his sms in the phone over and over again, even thou it isnt anything sweet and some can be as simple as just an 'ok' with a smiley face behind..I still keep it and it does put a smile on my face everytime i read it...I was watching drama using computer and there's a blank paper in front of me..was scribbling while watching and suddenly I just scribbled his name on it...I knew it deep in my heart that he doesn't suit me..but I just can't help thinking about him...I felt so ashame to ask people to let go the one who ain't worth it for them and yet myself couldn't do it!!

I thought after I got the result, I will have a good sleep and yet...here come another sleepless nite..bear with me if this few posts bored u..I really really having problem with myself dealing with all these thoughts that rush across my head...I need a big warm hug!! idunnowhatshouldido!!!!!!!!! T_T


Breathe Again - Juwita Suwito



Have you ever wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face today
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck Its a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life's replay

Things will work out fine
If you can't find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

Lovely song for all the broken hearts out there...to move on is never easy, but its not that hard after all =)

iamnotokay!

I keep looking at the phone..hoping that your name will appear and yet I only got myself another disappointing night...."so what if he call? so what if he message? It doesnt mean anything and it never will.." I keep telling myself that...and there's nothing to be disappointed over...

"I understand and I only hope we can be platonic friends..."

Thankx for being frank, and I'm glad that we still can talk like last time and tease each other like we used to..but somehow it hurts..I am NOT AT ALL OK!! this line had been appearing too often in my head and it really torn me into pieces..I wish I never send that sms..I wish I never did. It's time like this make me think about it, think about you even more often!! I duno what can I do to get rid of this feeling and I duno if I should get rid of it..the only way that can make me feel better is play the music out loud and cry!!!

I will move on...it's just the matter of time!

Bye bye Mr. Hectic and Hallo Mr. Free-time

Finally, no more hectic..the longest week is over and now I'm officially FREE~ I hope I pass all the paper and need not to resit *prayin* and so do all my coursemate *still praying* may none of us flunk any of the paper...

had been going out on the day I finish my last paper itself. Went pyramid for a lil lunch session with my coursemates and its also a small farewell party for Nicholas and Jr. as Nic is leaving to Help for his master offer and Jr. had left to USCI for his Medicine course. So we all gathered at Jack's place for lunch..the food and environment is nice =) we took some pic and then we went off for shoppin..initially we plan to go redbox, but we din do any bookin before hand so we can hardly get a room..and so the plan was canceled and be replaced by shoppin. I got myself a top, I swear this is the shortest time I use to buy myself something!

Went for a movie with the gang - Harry Potter and the order of the phoenix. It was just ok..not really a WAOH~ show like transformer and Die hard 4.0, if ur not HP fans better download the movie. anyhow, the actors are all grown up now..all became handsome and pretty instead of cute. after the show we had our dinner at sri melaka, it was always fun to eat with them cuz I'll get alotta fun and laughter through out the whole dinner time =D love u all mates

And here come da long awaited holidays, I've some plan in my head for this break..one of the most important one will be the joggin plan!! muz jog at least twice a week!! *sigh* what to do?alot pants cannot wear d!

*hapwee holidays*

Awesome Penang

A lil sum up for the penang trip (I know its an expired post but I just got the time for it!)

Went Penang for a lil' pre-exam vacation while my frens all enjoyin post-exam holidays =p Of cause the main purpose there is to celebrate my darling dear Venetia's 21st birthday=) Happy 21st gal, may you be blessed in everything u do! and thanx to her parents who brought us for all the NICE penang food! and the accommodation that her aunt provided! We live in an AWESOME condo *lucky us* and the 3 days 2 nite were all about food food and food~ end of the year, I wana go Penang again..somebody please plan it!! I wana stay longer...

alrite here are some pictures I ought to show long ago..

peNnY on the way to the island..

sim, did u just open up a cafe in Ipoh?! haha..

traffic congested...

our first meal at Penang~ look at horngie's face!!so ham sap..

a bunch of hungry ghost~

living room..i love the sofa =)

"my room" for only 2 nites...haha

the dining area..

chillin in the living room...

the condo swimming pool

one of the unit...how I wish i own the condo *jealous*

Queensbay mall~

self shooting...=p

what's so interesting up there?

Rachel enjoying her lunch..AaarMmm...

promoting claypot noodles..

they having fun~while the gals busy dressing up

medidating before the party =.="

at venetia's party

buffet~whee..the food is sooo yummy!

its written there..Venetia happy birthday =) we sweat sial after that...haha

Yen Ling's big footprint!! =p

With da birthday gal =)

coffee time at Gurney place after the party..

check out the long~ Q for the char kuey teow, it cost us RM5.50 for a small one=.=

Orh jian~

Char kuey teow..

Horng and Vince..Horngie happee betul

Rach, me and Yen enjoying the food =D

this is just the small part of it..

the fun part of the trip was actually the games we played...too bad we promised to keep it as top secret so I cant post up here...hehe...guys when are we going for a trip again?! I love the trip we had..lets keep them comin!

Life.Suicide














Been doing alot reading on suicide last month when I was preparing the presentation and my essay, most suicide cases were due to frustration in life, because they met obstacles in life and not willing to deal with the pain and frustration; and there they go with the stupidest act ever- to kill themselves. The question is, did u solve any problem by puttin an end to ur life? I think you only add on a greater sorrow to those who love and care bout you. It does leave a very horrible impact for them who experience the lost of friends and family by suicide!

Life never seems to be easy for anyone, everyone have their own problems and obstacles in life that they have to face and overcome. If they can face it, why not you? This is what we call life, if there's no bitterness in life, will you know how is sweetness taste like?

Look up into the sky, sometimes you get sunny day, and sometimes you get cloudy day. Even the sky have different mood everyday, so how can everythin around u be the same ALWAYS??wouldn't it be dull when you have a REALLY peaceful life without any ups and downs?

remember: What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger!!

The Rose



Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

Okay, I know Im not suppose to crap at this time especially the first paper is in less than 12 hours time..but I cant help it, I just came across this clip and I cant wait to see my darling gals to get marry!!the happiness is just so overwhelming.. hmm..wondering who will be the lucky man =)

the judgment week

Time flies..my 1st sem is coming to an end and its time for exam!! argh, I hate exam..but then Im having fun reading my text book =) uncle Freud's theory is really interesting hehe..
okay I know I'm suppose to update on the Penang trip but not now la fren, got no time to upload pictures and all, but for sure the Penang trip was AWESOME =D
been sitting infront the study table for more than 8 hours..study, make notes, chat once in a while, listen to music when im tired, frenster, and now here I am to blog..hehe lemme show u my study table..

lecture's slides, note book n text book


okay..I know its messy