She's still alive

yes. for those of you who didn't see me online for sometimes and thought that I am dead already..I AM STILL ALIVE okay? just that my msn got emo with me for more than a month and I have to use the lousy emoticon-less ebuddy which automatically turn me off every time I sign in so I wasn't really online chatting that much. but anyhoo~ Henry came and fixed my comp at last and it is now officially upgraded to Vista Ultimate! whee~ my BenQ is so pweety now *staring at the screen and admiring*

ugh. I am lazy..seriously! but I had finally clear the mess on my study table and tidy up the room abit last wednesday. wanted to tidy up the wardrobe as well but I got too tired after cleaning the room and table like 4 hours. I throw away all the rubbish that I had been keeping for years and I accidentally found some old pictures. I found some pictures that were taken in Genting when I was in Form 2!!!!! omigosh! I really din't know whether to laugh or cry...they look so EWWWWW lol but anyway, everyone has their past okay! NO I am not goin to show u!

I watched 'Next' by Nicholas Cage 2 days ago. I know it is frigging long time ago but I always have this tendency to miss out some good show in the cinema. say 'Iron Man' ? damn it! I feel so regret..any chance the cinema will re-schedule it? *sigh* coming back to 'Next' it was relatively short but nice movie =) interesting plot and great actors. but the ending really zha dou laaaa -________- they could have come up with a better ending but other than that everythin else is fine..go check it out if you haven watch ;)
I have 'Meet the Spartans' here with me, which I am still thinking to watch or not to watch as it somehow reminds me of the 'Epic Movie' which is really extraordinary lame and I curse the producer kao kao after watching it because I spent an EFFIN RM10 to watch it on a friday night!!

alright, enough with the movies. time to bed. update soon

Psychos Break Away

I've briefly mentioned about my after exam trip to PD and there is really nothing special to talk about..its just the usual over night trip that most of you would have experienced so I shall just post up the pictures....

oh btw, nothing special to talk about doesnt mean it's not great..the trip was awesome!! and I think you can see that from the pictures...

On our way to PD!

camwhore in the car and neglect the driver wtf

we found out about the balcony at the upper floor of the suite...

and they got so excited about it =.=

then we went to the beach...

and did all the craziest and whackiest (if only there is such word) things at the beach!

so u get the idea that I enjoyed the trip rite? LOL

Evolution

okay..I am getting bored at home even thou at times I enjoy waking up late and doing practically nothing but online and glued my eyes to the tv screen...there are things I need to do but I am just simply lazy to start..things like tidy up my room, my study table and my wardrobe...my table is still in a mess like it is before the exam...I need to go jogging as I've put on weight thanx to the binge eating habit I have during exam! and I am just so reluctant to get the exercise plan started..when the weather is good, I feel like staying indoor, when it is really sunny I also feel like staying indoor...can die 'not? haih..

I will get all the plans started soon.........when I have the mood =P

I was looking through some old pictures and I found some pictures of mine...ha hah I have to say I changed ALOT!

what d'ya think?

Of coffee and the company

Met up with Boo, Flo and Adrian a while ago at Starbucks SS2 and I'd like to say that I love the coffee, the place and the people =) I really enjoyed my time there talking and laughing at all sort of nonsense...and like how Syed put it..I always look forward to meet u people every time ;) it'll be great if it comes with free drinks but too bad laa boss tak nak belanja (YES Syed Ibrahimsha Ameen, I am talking about u!) we gonna make it a monthly thing...cause I will be broke for drinking too much Starbucks without any sponsorship....he he

About surprise, cupcakes and batman

so the surprise belated birthday celebration for Carol did work out.........somehow

Adrian and I planned the surprise thingy in less than a week time...okay he did the most part of it from making reservation for cakes and the restaurant to communicate the idea with the people at the restaurant..I just appear with the cakes when he said so..haha we still did it althou she smell something fishie because Adrian is a fishmonger apparently she loves the cupcakes AND the candles alot and they keep snapping the pictures of the cupcakes =.= I guess the pictures of the cupcakes is more than the people ha hah..

After the very satisfying (READ: FOOL FULL) dinner, we went for a movie- The Dark Knight! and before I watch this show..I thought people were all saying how good Heath Ledger played the role of Joker was just because he is dead..but now I have to say that he is really good!! but somehow the joker reminds me of Johnny Depp..it looks like that kinda character that he will play...anyway the movie is all good, this is the first time I watch a complete batman movie..and I never know batman is actually a leng zai =.= Christian Bale is such a hottie!

I woke up rather early this morning to help out my cousin at the center of the blindfold reading method and I am really very sleepy now..after working all day yesterday and went out for party till late night..I am heading to sleep and I hope nobody caught me sleeping thru a phone call AGAIN =.="

Disappeared

sometimes I think to convey your thought to others is a tiring process...people dun seem to receive the same message as u sent them....some situation can be fixed by explaining but some just get worst..and we all know how much damage can misunderstanding do. so I choose to disappear...not literally ofcause.

Of Relationship and Trip

Relationship is a game for two. The third party is always the one to be blamed on. people generally have bad impression over the third party, snap at the one who destroy others relationship and always promise they will never be like that....

its easy to point ur fingers at others and snap at them when they are the extra one person in a relationship. but when the situation happen on ourselves, we often find many excuse to escape away from the guilt. when people fall in love with some one who are already in a relationship, they are unforgivable; but when we, ourselves who did things like this, its because the feeling is uncontrollable.......*sigh* self-serving bias! and never shall we ignore the fact that, it takes both hands to clap! the one who committed to the third party should be blamed altogether.

Actually, I do not like the idea of 'easy come easy go' kinda relationship. but then, like I said, feelings fade away and when we realized we do not love him/her anymore, we shouldn't lead them on. Tell them straight instead of letting the relationship going no where. I believe when you are in love, at the very moment you really love them; but when the feeling is already gone you cant fake! instead of hooking up with another one while u are still in the relationship with the current one and end up hurting all parties, might as well just be frank to the current partner, put an end to it and start a new. It is ok if you will fall for someone new, but do not start a new relationship when you are still engage in another relationship! because it is a frigging game for two!

I was watching some TV program just now and suddenly this issue strikes me, so wanted to share some thought here. but anyhow..an important announcement~ EXAM'S OVER! good or bad, it's over!! although I am quite sure that when I get the result, my life is going to shorten by decades....we went to PD right after our last paper and just came back on Tues! I totally enjoy the company and the fun! we took pictures, run around the beach like escapee from asylum, watch the sun set, have our very own 'ruler' massage, play poker, bluff, all half night long gossiping sharing session and snacks!!!!

sun set at PD

Kok's Anatomy

ABC's hit series Grey's Anatomy is no doubt a success

now we proudly present u the sequel to this hit series

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Kok's Anatomy!

p/s: Adrian, aren't u proud of ur surname? hahaha

again all credit goes to Ms. Samantha Tan laaaaaa, I nearly die laughing because of this!

普通朋友

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱

我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈

我愿意改变 (what can i do?)
重新再来一遍
just give me chance
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能放手

但你说
i only wanna be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i~
不能只是be your friend

i just can't be your friend
no no no

我不能只是做你的朋友

不能做普通朋友

it used to be the main theme of my life..but am all over it now =) penny gan is all glued back together now and he's just a friend. yes, nothing more than an ordinary friend and I am enjoying the feeling of us still being friend instead of awkward ;)

Hosanna!

In Judaism it means "save now", in Christianity it means "praise the Lord".. which ever it means, it can both be applied to the situation now..I'm praising the Lord for the terrible-horrible week had finally ended! and at the same time am asking God to save me, now!

like I said the exam went terribly not well....having heavy flu and sore throat after the first paper, got a lil fever after the 2nd paper and 3rd paper is the killer, Brain and Behaviour! seriously..I am preparing for the worst.....*sigh*

anyhow, I have a short period of relief for now...the past 5 days is like living in hell...or worst. I could feel my mood constantly flying below average line..on top of that, thinking about not being trusted pull me down to the lowest point of the world. I really didn't have a good week and I hope the coming one will be better!

will update again soon, its time to hit the bed! I can finally sleep in peace......sort of

I am still..

sleeping with my text books

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first paper is just 4 days away..!! OMG~
cramming notes everynite with the company of...

my wild friend's mug...with coffee in it ofcz!

my mp3...no la, I din listen when I am reading..oni once in a while ;)

my 'happiness' bottle LOL

Smiley~

really.....CANNOT FAIL!!!
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STUDYYYYYY~!!!