Stop and Stare

I should probably stop..before it gets out of hand.

or we're all gonna hurt REAL bad.

态度

凡事都要尽力争取一次
但如果争取过，尽力过
却还不得要领
那就算了

没有什么东西是非要不可
没有什么人是无可取代
在你花光所有力气
费尽所有心思
得到它的时候
才发现其实你并没有那么想要它
那会是什么样的感觉?
尽力就好，不要强求




..........很爱想太多

Accomplishment

The Company is doing the staff appraisal thingy and one small section of the self assessment is to list down your accomplishment through the year......I swear I was tempted to put "met a group of AWESOME friends" as one of the accomplishment.

I think I am a very very lucky girl..because I always met nice and fun people everywhere I go. let it be the primary, high school, college, work place and even national service...I always get to hang around with fun and noisy people...

If I were to die today, the friends I made would be my greatest achievement thus far. Thank you for making each and everyday of my life worth while.


I LOVE YOU YOU YOU AND YOU
xoxo

Sorry that I loved you

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And Im so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love， for wasting your time

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won`t make any difference tonight
But im hopin "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life


Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right （tonight）
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you （I was falling in love）
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time

I`m sorry that I loved you
I`m sorry that I hurt you
I`m so sorry that I loved you
I`m so sorry that I hurt you

I`m sorry that I loved you....

For you..

Bring it on

This was months ago...
now it just got worst..


but I believe I have super power...
this will not kill me!!

just one more day to go...and I'll be enjoying in Pangkor~
bring it on....
nights!

p/s: am getting a promotion, and a wee bit of increment...hmm not that bad huh?

Bizarre Love Triangle

Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday?
-Frente, Bizarre Love Triangle-

People changes over time....
and I can only hope that we are all changing for the best...

Effing Pissed

I really don't mind to be the joke sometimes.....
but when the same joke is to be repeated a gazillions time.......it became an insult.

How would you feel when you're seriously telling people around you something, trying to get some message across and all they can react is laugh? and you know from the bottom of your heart that they are laughing at the way you talk, and not paying a single bit of attention to what you just said?

I can tolerate it the first few times, but after so long.......I just wana say...



F*** OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



you dun need to have very good manner, but I do think I deserve the very basic respect from you.

OR you can continue doing it, we'll see how far I can tolerate this.

Octoberfest

I'm not referring to the event in Munich, but the meaning literally at it's surface.

It's a festive and eventful October so far...been away from KL for continuously two weekends and it was tiring yet amazing..

I enjoyed the refreshing trip to Cameron with my besties since highschool...

I had a wonderful first time experience joining the treasure hunt to Penang with my colleagues and had wonderful food hunt along the way back to KL the next day :)
*and we won the 5th place out of the 50 cars*

My mates had officially graduated! Too bad I couldn't join them, but I am very proud of them! Congratulation Batch 5!!! and ofcz Batch 6 too!!

and one very thrilling news on 10.10.10 was....Rachel Khoo is engaged to Mr Sha!!!!!
Congratulation Mrs Sha...he is not that kayu after all...quite romantic maaaaa hahaha I'm so very very very happy for both of u!

I hope the remaining days of October will be good too...

你不会懂我的

不想深入解释些什么
但..............
你(们)是不会懂我的

神啊! 我需要更多正面的能量!

如果每一天都要用别人的不幸来提醒自己有多幸运，多幸福
那就太悲哀了
我不要变成那条可怜虫!

睡觉去~
明天要去玩.....掰~!!

Waking up at the September end

Exercise release endorphins...

but why do I still feel f**king pissed!?


I think at times, we just wana be a stupid sadist..
not because we're unhappy, but because we just wana feel sad and gloomy for God knows what reason..

and I dun even understand what am I trying to say..or does it even make sense

I am just effing stress and pissed and gahhhhhhhhh

this is what happened when workload > salary

单身久了

在微博看到这么一段

一个人单身久了，就不想去恋爱，会感觉朋友越来越重要；
一个人单身久了，就不想去逛街，会越来越喜欢在家听歌；
一个人单身久了，就变得成熟起来，会比以前 越来越爱父母；
一个人单身久了，就买很多鞋子，会独自去很多很远的地方旅游；
一个人单身久了，就不经意悄悄流泪，会在众人面前什么都无所谓。

哇噻，我是一边看一边点头!
除了最后一句啦
又没死人，流什么泪....

Dear wtf

I think my email got hacked...

I think my whole address book received the same email..even myself =.=
cz I checked my email after reading Yong Long's message and I got the exact same email from 'myself'..


T__T what do I do nau?

Dream

I envy people with dreams...
I really do
because mine is no where to be found
Am I dreaming for something?
the answer is absolute
but
the question is
what?

no one knows

红豆

我们应该可以高喊 “友谊万岁!”
但 “友谊永固” 是骗小孩的
至少，对我来说
它已经不存在了
因为我们都已改变太多

从那里开始 时间有了不同转速
我们再也不站在同一个地面

如果人生就像骑脚踏车
那可能这个路口
你遇见了谁
一起骑了一段路
分开后 再遇见
各自看过了不同的风景
体验了不同的经历
很难再回到当初了

那是无奈
也是定律

即使再见面 成熟地表演
不如不见



不过，一起走过的那些路
那些回忆
是很珍贵的
感恩啊!


有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽.....

应该没有比这个更贴切的歌词了

想做就做

星期六下午
老爸在家赖了一个下午
忽然想要煮羊肉汤
就自己驾车到附近的大卖场去买材料
现在就在厨房里忙进忙出

我也好想像老爸那样
想做什么就去做
我真的有很多事想做
但好像一直都有不知名的东西在绑手绑脚
一直在等
等适当的时间
可是什么时候才是“适当”的时间?
没有人知道

我还是......一直在等!
等死啊! 等

Analysis

this is easy. take a pen, draw a line in the middle of the paper, and start to list down the pros and cons which ever with the longer list win.

Question is, do u compare in quantity or quality?

Argh~ headache!
I really dun think I can cope any longer...every single day is dreadful..

a question with no answer.....yet

better sleep. good night world. okaybai~

I've an update

Haven been doing proper blogging...like how I used to write in the past..

and this will still be an improper update aka short, random and unorganized...because there are way too much of writing typing at work.

actually, there is only one main thing I wana share. WHEN I WENT MAMAK LAST NIGHT, THERE WERE A GROUP OF UNCLE EATING DURIAN AND SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF OUR TABLE!

Eff this shit! I stood up and changed to the furthest table IMMEDIATELY!! heck, how can they allow people to bring durian to mamak?!

okay, enough of durian. I can almost smell it now just by typing it EWWWWW

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我以为认真去做就能实现我的梦
以为写首好歌走路就能抬起头
以为骑摩托车旅行就能变英雄
现在的我 失去了冲动

...
........
香格里拉在哪里 让我们去找寻


我也要我的香格里拉!

就到这

我头快炸了，但我是超人!

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好的坏的 做了选择
我们就到这
纵然会难以割舍又能如何
说好了
这个时刻不互相指责


dedicated to friend.

Adios, once again

Goodbyes are still hard, even after tons of practices.

Just when I started to get use to have her to hang out with again, she left already. A hello lead you to another goodbye. but then again, it's vice versa :)

I'll be looking forward to the next round we meet. I hope it won't be too long till the next time.
See you soon, R.

The sky is the limit

...and I thought I almost hit the sky today.

bright future?

it's ain't no sunshine after rain at the moment..

Sunshine!

a ray of sunlight...
bright future ahead...I like what I am seeing :D

鱼- 陈绮贞

怎能不爱陈绮贞?

RSVP

they say time changes everything
adulthood brings lies, hatred and argument
it's true, not all friendships are long lasting
ours, will be preserved, life long, permanent

-Rachel Chee, 2006-

picture credit to Henry Goh

The Weekend

in RSVP style...

I had a blast last weekend! the sleepover at Rachel's, the pillow talks, the gifts, the i-touch games, the shopping, the lunch, the mid night football, the dim sum, the movie....

I never remember spending weekend in such a fun way, for a long long time now...it feels like time suddenly went back to 3 years ago...I love moments spent with my babes!

nothing changes over time....well...almost nothing..weight is a different story.

Holiday..I want

Venice'd be nice :)

If I can afford, I'll leave without a second thought...
I need to travel around before I get old and senile....

....if only, we don't have all the commitments, responsibilities etc.

时间

世上最残酷的 恐怕是时间
困住人 一切却还向前

无法不认同
时间是治疗所有伤口的良药
因为它只会往前走
带你离开你受伤的时间点
就算你的世界对你而言
在这一刻瓦解，崩溃
它也不会为你停留
也从不为谁停留

如果我可以站在时间面前
看着一切事情的发生
应该就像看着一部电影
在某个时间点上
发生某些事情
可是电影不会因为这些事而中断
故事还是要继续
电影快结束的时候
你会忘了事情的细节
但你记住了在那段时间的那些感觉

.......我又在浪费时间去思考"时间"
睡觉去~~~~~~~~~~

好久不见

喜剧默片的背后
戏子的内心世界
又有谁真的了解?
MV与音乐的强烈对比
是不是我们的最佳写照

好久不见，
朋友们，
................和我自己。

Death and the lesson behind

...and death reminds us how fragile our life can be....again.

I only met him a few times, during gatherings..
din talk much, maybe just a hallo and good bye..
to know that he died in such a tragic way, is disturbing..
and I hope that the remaining family members will survive..

It'll be a tough journey ahead of them, but I pray and believe that they'll pull it through.

May you rest in peace, Joash.

Life is short, times are hard, the road is long, with many winding turn. - Miranda Bailey, Grey's Anatomy.

Something to talk about

To whom it may concern,

All I can say is, don't take your friends for granted. If you are not happy or having any problems, we are definitely more than willing to listen. we are your friends, not your punch bag..dun release all the stress you have on us without even giving us a chance to know what's going on. and let's face it, who the hell in this world has no stress?

Just because you are tension doesn't mean you have all the reason in the world to be rude to others. You are a grown up, so act like one.

Ola~

New Layout!

gonna use this temporarily, because I did something to the old one out of boredom and I regretted because it freaking screwed!

and this one is screwed as well because the stupid date is incorrect and I duno how to make it right...

it's a happy yuppy May-June :)
Yi Horng's back home, Kx back home, and next....BFFL back home!
cannot wait...

Twenty-Four

link

Happy one year older~
wiser~
happier~
slimmer~
prettier~
healthier~
richer~

:P

It's Weekend

Ola~

I should be sleeping, but it's weekend so I thought I should just post something but I dun have much to talk about..life is as bored and as sad as our badminton team wtf saja wana mention about them because it's like the hot topic now. seriously, look at our performance..defeated by Japan, and almost kena tapao by Denmark..and our players bullshit on fb! *tsk tsk*

anyway, will be seeing Ler Pork in a week's time, BFFL in another 32 days or so :D

I miss all the people that I used to hang out with, life is totally different now. the things we do, the things we talk about, *sigh* I is growing older...but then again, no one grow younger...Benjamin Button is another story!

love the mamak, love the night breeze, love the late night talk at the park, love the relaxing moment...

hmm....blogging on random stuff is kinda fun...

Quote of the day:

Life is a handful of short stories, pretending to be a novel. - Anonymous

C'est la vie mon cheri

I never get bored watching this..it's so classic..so saddening..
and life doesn't always have a happy ending..

indeed..if death is the worst scenario..there is nothing we can't overcome in life!
I think that's the reason why she is so optimistic, because she went through the worst.

Happyness....

Happiness is when you sleep in in a rainy night,
and wake up to a bright sunny day...
Happiness is when you completed the tasks your superior gave you..
and without much major mistake..
Happiness is when you can buy your parent a movie, a dinner,
with your own money..
Happiness is a sip of coffee..
Happiness is a good movie..
Happiness is counting down the days...
Happiness is good company..
Happiness is talking to your bffl
Happiness is Friday night..
Happiness is having dinner with family..
Happiness is when you run faster than the last time..
Happiness is listening to songs that bring back good memories..
Happiness is solitaire
and winning it (by a card) =P
Happiness is LOL
Happiness is Greys Anatomy..
Happiness is when you found a pretty wallpaper..
Happiness is sharing
Happiness is...........living

Happiness came from many many little things.....
and these are my definition of happiness...

Everyone is trying to accomplish something big, not realizing life is made up of little things. -Frank A. Clark

IDUNLIKEYOU

Lately I found myself feeling so annoyed at some people. what shock me was that the feeling of dislike/annoyed came in to the picture so suddenly. I duno how I can just dislike some body over night. it's like suddenly everything from this particular person is unacceptable. the way she talks, the thing that she said, etc.

well, maybe there are reasons behind this but I just choose to ignore the fact that "I dislike this person" until one point of time it explode. and everything from him/her become unbearable.

there's this one thing of yourself that you can't control, is feeling. You can't force yourself to like someone who you don't. nor you can force someone else to like you.

I won't last a day without you

When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you


I can't make this song stop playing in my head...

Notice

Penny Gan had signed up for the KL marathon 2010, 10km.

wish me luck. full stop.

Dead End

The situation is obvious..
everyone can see that it's a dead end..
people told me,
that this will lead you to no where..
but I can't control my feet to walk down the road..
even thou I know it from the beginning that I will be disappointed..
and will have to turn back when I reach the end of it..
I still have to keep walking..
because the journey walking towards the dead end....
is full of uncertainty...
or I'll call it surprises...
before reaching the end...
anything can happen..
and I'd like to hope for the best....:)

酸葡萄

寓言故事说
狐狸吃不到高挂的葡萄
便说它是酸的
这样或许有些啊Q精神
但至少狐狸心里会比较好过
可是为什么人却认为
得不到的永远是最好的?
而握在手里的
永远比不上别人的
然后越想就越难过
越难过就越想得到
可是最后大家都忘了
到底是真的想得到
还是只是心有不甘

At the Junction. Adios

It didn't ring the bell that I might not be able to see you anytime soon in near future, until the point that we part.

3 years passed by too fast. When I drove out of the mall, passed by the road that I used to drop you home, passed by your housing area which you have stayed for 2 years or so. Now I saw the house but knowing that you are no longer living there makes me feel bitter..it's like everything remain the same from the outside, but all it left, was just memory.

There again, we reached the junction of the road where we have to decide our path and move on with our life. Someday in future, we might meet at another junction, or we might not even meet at all...I am really happy that we've been through such a long journey together. There were memories that I'll treasure, friendships that I'll not trade for anything in the world.

So this is it, a goodbye at this junction...until we meet again!

*I is damn sad.....I is crying T___T*

Today

is one of those very rare days that I feel good~

everything...well almost everything seem to be in the correct place..
and I'd like to keep this feeling with me for a little while..

I love this feeling...
feeling the 'right'

星期天

星期天下午
在餐厅最显眼的位置
对面的空位子
原来
一个人的午餐
可以很自由
却也很孤单
一小时像一辈子
身边吵闹的人声
阻止不了孤寂的吞噬
入口的绿茶变苦涩
事过境迁
没有人能回到从前

Surface

I talk a lot...

I think the whole world knows that..

but what the world didn't know is...

sometimes, it's an obligation to talk...

忙

最近生活.........
很忙碌
忙工作，忙打工，忙交际.......
忙得我几乎没有多余的时间给我自己
但为什么
越忙却越觉得空虚?

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爱到疯癫 苦的酸的无所谓
......伤了痛了都没感觉..
......你要我等你到哪个期限 我都奉陪...
.......
彻底失眠 就在没有你的夜
我把你放在我记忆的深处
就这样想你不想睡
....

爱到疯癫
......值得吗?

So long, Goodbye..

it's always bitter to say goodbye..but I am fortunate enough to have the chance to say it because I came to know you before you leave...

it'd been a great 2 months...wishing you all the best in the future...

Statue of Liberty...
more like Statue of AT

we'll meet again~
bye bye Ally..

After 365 days

就等这一刻!


我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有，
我的灵和魂魄不停守候在你心门口，
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流,
藏在无边无际小小宇宙，
爱你的我~


guitar solo....AWESOME!
cried so much right after the first note came out T__T

圈圈

有的人渐渐走进这个圈圈..
有些人慢慢淡出...
有的人踩在圈圈边缘...

有的人无法归类...
不在圈圈内,不在圈圈外,也不在边缘.....

Dear Rachel

Dear Rachel,

it'd been 230 days (I really did count!!) since you left to Sweden..I is missing you as usual..why did I wanna write something about you suddenly? because you appear in almost every entries in my blog before 2008 and it reduce drastically after 2008...and I'm afraid I might forget about you because I have Alzheimer hence here's a post to remind myself

hahah, okok..just kidding...

I really miss you heaps, you know when at times you were less busy and have time to think about people around you..you always pop up and scare me honestly, the image of us going shopping or doing anything random together seem so faraway...it feels like it was decades ago since we last did shopping together..but the feeling of us going out, shopping, singing, dancing, eating, laughing etc were still so clear...I could still remember how I used to smile from the heart when I saw ur car coming each time when we were going out..

I din know how to describe, you are like an old friend...and a new friend..old because I've known you through the years; new because you've been away for awhile, and I'm waiting to meet the new you =)

I guess this post is going nowhere, and I duno how to end this...hmm...I guess I should end it with some OLD pictures...

I bet you din know I can multitask....LIKE THIS!

I miss you!!!!

I duno about you, but this picture gave me a BFFL feel
hhaha

The end of moomoo year...

*roar*

let's say goodbye to the holy cow and welcome the holy tiger :P

I had been celebrating aka eating so much since 2 weeks ago =.= and I had 3 lou sang thus far....CNY is not even here yet

anyhoo~ I wish all of you a prosperous year ahead,may the year of tiger be filled with success, happiness for you and everyone around you :)

*cheers~*

This Week

I'll call it a "meet old friends week"

I love how we can talk about old times, the days we used to share blah blah blah..I know, it's a sign of aging *sigh*

I dunno if the lack of blog entry has anything to do with aging but I just don't find blogging about every little thing in my life interesting anymore. unless there are really something unique/funny/scary/sad/happy that I MUST share with the world, like I'm pregnant wtf..that is a different story altogether. other than that, what is the point of telling you what I did, where I went and who I meet? definitely the effect of aging..

This post is going no where, I should stop here.

p/s: my bffl is coming back! whee~~~~~ *jumping around with joy*

Notice

Boo!
I've obviously lost the mojo in blogging........as you've already noticed by now

currently having mental constipation..hopefully will resume soon!
I hate reading the same thing...

okay! buhbye~

手痒

泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住
不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

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点了两杯咖啡
聊着近况靠着椅背
天色太黑
却盖不掉心里多出的空位
单独的约会
是机会还是误会?
逞强的滋味
总是让人太狼狈

上半段是歌词
下半段......手痒痒写的
用华语，因为他看不懂! 哈哈

Law of Least Effort

Hallo~
How was the first week of the year treating you? I hope it's all good..

I am pretty much enjoying and accepting my life as it occur, I guess in that way you meet less disappointment because u have less expectation. But then, just by merely accepting everything that come it's way is not a total ideal style of living too...without expectation, goals or target in life, there will not be improvement. haih, why am I always so confuse like that?

Damn, I dun even understand what I just typed. I just read something about the Law of Least Effort and I thought it was really awesome...

The Law of Least Effort

This law is based on the fact that nature’s intelligence functions with effortless ease and abandoned carefreeness. This is the principle of least action, of no resistance. This is, therefore, the principle of harmony and love. When we learn this lesson from nature, we easily fulfill our desires. In Vedic Science, the age-old philosophy of India, this principle is known as the principle of economy of effort, or “do less and accomplish more.” Ultimately, you come to the state where you do nothing and accomplish everything. This means that there is just a faint idea, and then the manifestation of the idea comes about effortlessly. What is commonly called a “miracle” is actually an expression of the Law of Least Effort.Least effort is expended when your actions are motivated by love, because nature is held together by the energy of love. When you seek power and control over other people, you waste energy. When you seek money or power for the sake of the ego, you spend energy chasing the illusion of happiness instead of enjoying happiness in the moment. When your actions are motivated by love, your energy multiplies and accumulates–and the surplus energy you gather and enjoy can be channeled to create anything that you want, including unlimited wealth. There are three components to the Law of Least Effort–three things you can do to put this principle of “do less and accomplish more” into action. The first component is acceptance. Acceptance simply means that you make a commitment: “Today I will accept people, situations, circumstances and events as they occur.” This means I will know that this moment is as it should be, because the whole universe is as it should be. The second component is responsibility. This means not blaming anyone or anything for your situation, including yourself. This allows you the ability to have a creative response to the situation as it is now. All problems contain the seeds of opportunity, and this awareness allows you to take the moment and transform it to a better situation or thing. The third component to the Law of Least Effort is defenselessness. This means that you have relinquished the need to convince or persuade others of your point of view. If you relinquish this need you will in that relinquishment gain access to enormous amounts of energy that have been previously wasted.”

it looks really ideal to me at some point of time because I just thought "OMG, this law totally rocks!" it's truly a convenient law for the lazies (Sun, 2010) but on second thought, it's not really practical...how to accept everything as it occur and take it as it should be when by nature human being tend to plan out MOST of their life few steps in advance? How to not blame anyone else or ourselves for a situation when it is obviously someone else or our fault? How to be defenselessness when defense is something we do to protect ourselves? either verbally or physically...

I guess it's time to sleep..there isn't any absolute manual to teach you how to live a happier life anyway..everyone go figure it out on ur own, just pray that you dun learn it the hard way...