我的心情日记

挣开眼睛，明显看得出让眼泪陪我过了一夜。凌晨的那个chatroom，真的让我心痛到了极点。虽然醒了，但却始终不想起床。躺在床上，墙上的钟和床边的闹钟像在比赛一样，嘀嗒，嘀嗒 地不停的在走者。
终于，伸了个懒腰，甘愿起身梳洗，也不知道是早餐还是午餐时间了，反正也无所谓了。习惯性地坐在电脑荧幕前，伸脚按了一下长住在桌底的CPU，开启了电脑，开启MSN，然后就是无聊的等待......很随意的开了我的SonicStage，随便click了一首歌就让它随着playlist播放,对着那playlist真的有点闷了。
听着音乐，忽然右下角传来了有人sign in的alert window，看见了她的名字，几个小时前的对话又在我脑里浮现。自动弹出的window，传来了她的字句。知道我的不好受，难过，很努力的想让我不去怪自己。我只能告诉她，我很好，只是需要时间去消化整件事。
我真的不知道，我的话到底伤了你多少，很多时候你都选择自己去背那些痛苦和不快乐。我很想让我身边的朋友都快乐，但是到最后却让我发现，其实最让你受伤害的是我！

i noe we all did make mistake...our frenship is growin stronger after tis incident and i shall protect tis precious frenship with all my efford n wont allow any one else to destroy it!!!!

worst nite ever T_T

crap...i never feel as shitty..heartbroken..hurt..sad and down as now b4.....i'm like de worst fren on earth that anyone can have.......wat makes me look more stupid is when u post up de blog of this 'betrayer' thingy i stil go after u and ask!!!!!!!!!! i muz hv look extremely super duper stupid!!!!!!! i duno how to describe the feelin within me now....its realy terribly bad....
as wat i mentioned b4..u r no more like a fren to me bt a family of mine....sometimes even i feel i isnt dat close to my family either....how do u wan me to accept myself betray u without myself knowin it?!?!? i should hv realise it earlier!!!!!!i shudn't hv been so dum!!!!!!!!!
i wish so much i can jz stab myself to die.....or jz dig a hole n tanam myself in it!!!!!!!tel me how u manage to face me that time?!?!?!?! dun u feel like slappin me?!?!dun u feel im such irritatin?!?!

like family???!?!?!!!?!?! i'm jz over estimatin myself too much.....WAY~~~~~~~~too much

any how i stil wana say another time...sorry for EVERYTHIN..........................

quick update

haven been updating for some times...realy busy recently...assignmentz..fren's birthday..monash ball..hehe...here are some quick updates on wat i'm busyin wif:

• ENV essay-stuck with hurricanes and global warming for 2 weeks..finally finished and submitted..**relieved**
• Marketing presentation-done with my presentation^^**big relieved*** as u noe i really hate public speaking especially when i duno wat m i talkin bout...
• best buddy's birthday-as rachel's birthday is comin..so few of us had came up with a slides show and play it in de theather infront of all her coursemate..hehe..thou there's something unorganise i hope we stil manage to surprise her somehow...HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear^^
• MONASH BALL- ponteng all the lectures on friday to prepare the ball =P stayed over nite at palace of the golden horses in a president suite!!!!!u never noe how excited we are^^ the ball was just ok but we enjoyin our time takin tonnes n tonnes of pictures...anyhow u dun get to see me in dress so often...hahah...went back hotel at nite n happened somethin which disappointed yen yen n rachel...sorry dears..promise no more nex time =P

pictures will be update soon as its stil under construction...haha

destiny

been bothered by something recently n not very happy bout it for quite some times..suddenly came across this phrase from youzi's blog "道路纵使再崎岖，只要能带着微笑，没有跨越不过的障碍。大不了绕路再走。"
mayb u r true..there's nothin we cant get over...worst come to worst we walk further to reach our destiny....

"The question is not whether we will die, but how we will live."- Joan Borysenko

we see true frenship in them

holiday spree~

tis week would be de most relax week for me despite the mid sem test...practically i jz went for classes from mon to wed...wed nite went the curve with the other 3 spinsters-rachel, venetia n yenny for the merdeka countdown...waoh..penny gan went for all this merdeka celebration thingy!!!!!how patriotic!!!well..kononnya la...our main reason there was shoppin..but we went there quite late..most of the shops were closed..we jz managed to stroll around the bazaar n took pictures in the mall!!!tones n tones of crazy and vain pics we took...we then headed to tgif for some snack..met jaclyn victor there...hehe..the fireworks started without waitin for us...luckily we stil manage to catch it...it's so beautiful and awesome....but look at the one beside me...**sigh**(jokin la dear..hehe^^ its so great to watch wif u) after de countdown..we headed home...errm..i min headed back yenny's place..went there to slp over cz its too late to drive back alone...well..when gals get together..there's oways endless topics to cover...we'v been makin jokes wif yen yen's kiddy's photo...her chai pau-nerd pics were makin all of us laugh our head off=D n de mid nite pillow talk...havin a great chat wif u gals..nex week come my hse k?
the nex day..they went redbox for their pre-planned karaokae session n i went home to pack up n ready for my cherating trip....cant wait to go cz i noe there's GOOD FOOD waitin for me there...as expected..de 3D2N there i had been eating like i'v starv for a week!!!gosh..my mouth jz cant stop 'exercisin' when i get there...pulut, otak-otak, keropok lekor, super big n fresh fishes, sotong, fresh vege from my uncle's garden, snackz, etc......sandy beaches, hammock, cute niece, gentle breeze......my god i almost forgotted i wasnt in a holiday actually....
back to KL on sat evening...went to dennis' birthday party wif rachel at nite..godness!!!we haven been wearin de same top for thousand years n it jz happened again tonite!!!as usual ppl wil start askin why are we in de same top...n we'v been answerin the question for bout 10 times...hahah..glad to meet back some of the old mates...happy birthday dennis....see u soon^^

well..u see i'm actually very busy isnt it?!?!MUAHAHAH~~



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