I is depressed wtf

I tried to be positive..
but time is ticking away...
so much more to study..
so little time left..
I dun feel like seeing anyone..
I dun feel like talking..
I think I am depressed..
but I'm not allowed to..
cause people thought I'm always so negative..
it makes me even more depressed
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back to perception..
if I dun finish at least half of all the chapters tonight..
I might as well just jump off the cliff...